spongebob flirtypants

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2008-03-31T23:58:00.002+08:00

my neck is getting stiff. too lazy to adjust my pillow for the comfort of my neck, head or whatever you call it. shall just blog while lying down on my bed. this is seriously gonna get me Myopia. oh wait, I am already a victim of Myopia at the age of 8. So too bad Myopia, try your luck else where, you've already ruined mine. I was only a kid, an adorable one and I was only in kinder garden. Thick round frame spectacle I wore, I recall clearly like it was just yesterday. Step foot into the spectacle hut and the optimistrist told me I had myopia, nothing serious just something minor. There was no need for spectacle unless I wanted to. So he asked me, do you want to get a spectacle? PAUSE! It was the his fault, he ruined my life that optimistrist. Who in their right mind would leave a life altering decision to a kid of age 8? I am just a kid, of course I wanted a spectacle with Mickey Mouse on it. My friends are wearing spectacles too. And so, my life was changed from that very moment. Year after year, I went and get my eyes checked and each time it only got worse and I got new spectacles! That was the only thing worth looking forward to. Haa. Something new to bring back home.

FUCK myopia and that optimistrist for tempting me with bright colours and mickey mouse spectacles. P.S. kids are drawn to bright colours and cartoon character and easily affected by peer influences. And so, there's no shame admiting I fell for it.

Despite having poor eyesight, I can still see really well. Far too well.

Just a glance and I know what you are up to. What you want and most of all who you want. Me. You want me.

To save you the trouble of trying to catch my attention and saving me the trouble of not looking at you. Here's a few things that might just help you out.

1)Girls with long hair. Permed, rebond, whatever.
2)Big boobs.
3)Bigger than big boobs.
4)Fair complexion, not pale.
5)Tall. Using of high heels are totally fine. That's what all girls should wear.
6)No skimpy outfits. Reveal too much flesh and it's cheap not seductive.

Too high an expectation for someone who isn't even a hunk? Well, true. Not a hunk, yet. Hahah.

I must be blind in the past. If I ever flirt with you or went out with you or even claim I like you but you do not seem to fit into either one of the six I've listed. Sorry. I've got Myopia. Didn't meant to give you false hope. So enough of telling your friends I like you, dated you or shown interest in you. It was all so past tense.

Kaixin is a kamikaze. She's so deadly in love with me. Haha.
Love you too, Kaixin. Sounds so mushy. But all girls like it. No one can resists it.
I am a swallow! Let's go to school Sang-Doo!
No idea what I am talking about? Google it.

I've lost interest in the opposite sex. Prolonged exposure in a female environment may cause grief harm to any man. No, I am not turning gay. Never. There's just too much too many girls. You can never have all the pretty ones. If I can't have all, where's the fun? No matter where I go, whoever I've flirt with for the day. I will still go back to you, Kaixin. You must be loving this don't you?
An entry meant for you. You had better treat me well and not make me ever regret blogging this heart felt entry. I'll kill you if there's a need!

you know jolly well what I am capable of. Set your friends on me and I'll squeesh them all. Artistic they might be, they are still weird little bugs to me. Hahah.

You stole my luck. I want it back. I want my iPod back too.
I am thinking of something mushy to write but I can't seem to recall how it goes.
Anyway, I think it is something about using up all my luck just to get you and that you're worth it all or something.

Don't show this entry to any of your friends. They might want me to squeesh them! Hahah. okay, maybe to the one that has fallen out of love. How's that? Had your boyfriend done something like this for you huh? I've never bought breakfast for Kaixin before, it's not that I don't want to, it's that she sleeps till afternoon and the breakfast I brought since morning becomes lunch for her. Beat that!

The medication to his allergy has worn off. he is now not so normal again.

allergy

2008-03-31T23:04:00.003+08:00

I am allergic to honey, Naruka Honey.
Interesting.

So I guess it's goodbye to expensive so-called antibodies increasing honey.
Hello cheap artificial honey!

My face swelled up. Body turned red. Thought I was gonna die. Turned out it was an allergy. Dad says we don't die that easily, how true.

Went gym today. Felt real good. I was probably high from the medication for allergy. A case of drug abuse? Haha.

The air tasted sweet, sweet freedom. Stuck at home for the past three days. All I did was, pop some pills and lost conscious. That's a day gone wasted. Day two and three, pop more pills and became a log.

Not knowing what was the cause for the allergy and in the mist of anxiety in hoping to recover faster, I took 5ml of Naruka Honey, not once but thrice daily. It's suppose to boost antibodies not develop ANTI BODIES! And so, it took three days to recover.

I am blogging funny. I know.

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2008-02-18T23:04:00.004+08:00

still not enough, whatever i have done.
the money earned, the effort i injected into myself.
it all boils down to nothing significant.

i gotta be rich. i am no artist. i can't be like an artist who finally gets their big break on their death bed after enduring half a century of poverty. time to wake up and stop pretending to be something i am not. enough of the piano and all things classical. classic never goes out of style, true, but it goes outdated. ART is too over rated and overly charged.

what exactly is ART?
an opportunity to hike up the prices? a few brush strokes on whatever it may be, and the price doubled or perhaps tripled. truly an art, the art of spending.

an excuse to not throw away all things old and stinky? put together cupboards, buttons and lots of glue. you get a massive piece of mistake. poor garang guni man, now they can't decide to sell it under paper, plastic or just trash.

Art.. haa.

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2008-02-18T23:04:00.003+08:00

averagy not

2008-02-18T23:04:00.002+08:00

sissy boys i detest

2008-02-16T22:47:00.001+08:00

it is so easy to jump to a conclusion without sparing a thought for others or the very least, understand the issue at hand before getting into seriously fingers pointing, merely to cover his very own ass. i might be wrong about the ass part. he might have been a she instead. freaking sissy.

i did not lock the drawers. it is not that i did not tried with the bunch of keys that i had. the keys won't lock the damn drawers. if i recall correctly, it is only my second time doing closing, the first was ages ago. how the fuck am i suppose to know the drawers are to be locked by a bunch of keys that are not capable of locking the damn thing? Oh, did i lock the drawers the very first time? Damn, i must have been real lucky that the keys that aren't working actually worked. i can't recall a thing on the very first day, i was too annoyed by your sissy behavior. so right now
there's a watch missing and i'm the last to figure out. trying to make me a scapegoat by linking it all the way back to me. so damn clever, did you sacrifice the time you could've used into styling your hair just to come up with this pathetic plan to set me up?

i'm not denying i'm not entirely at fault. my only fault was not seeking help, to determine if the drawers were meant to be locked by keys that won't work. if sissy boy could've took up a wee bit more time that he uses to ensure he walks in the sissiest way he could to think things through. who the bloody fuck would freaking steal A WATCH!!! when the drawers are loaded with WATCHES!!! whoever that stole the watch probably did not had a bag to load up the watches? Sorry, there are BAGS!! in the drawers too.

okay, maybe you are trying hard not to be a sissy. Fingers pointing and blaming others isn't making you anywhere near manly. throwing sissy fits definitely puts you at the bottom of the list, that's sad, even for a sissy. it would have been better if you tried to be less scheming and actually called up and informed me about the situation. we could've worked out a solution. Like they say, one more guy beats having just a sissy around.

blow the whole thing up! come on. you know what's coming to you. after today, the world would know what kinda low down creep you are. Backstabbing your very own colleague, such a shame if only you had the time to think through it with your sissy brain rather than minding your silly dressing. Do try getting physical. I'm dying to see what I'm capable of doing to you.

the pain i taste, the soreness that lasts.
it only makes me.
One step closer, into a monster.

I'm a gentleman

2007-12-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

A cheena lady fought with me over a cab and I gladly gave in. Handed the cab over to her and she made snide remarks about me. She had a man to back her up too. Ooo..I am so scare~
Reasons to why I gave my cab up..
Firstly, she's a lady despite how unreasonable she was. Secondly, she's cheena and unreasonable. Enough said, when you face any cheena people, either you give in to them or ignore them and do the reverse of what they tell you. For instance they say " don't take my cab!!" You could or actually should instead rush into the cab and slam the door in their faces. I would highly recommend this, for they would show no sign of gratitude even if you gave them the cab. How would I know? You wouldn't wanna know about it. It doesn't pay to be kind, at least when it comes to them.

Just when I thought there's still hope left in the world. They had to crush it. How sad.

No mercy, time to train fucking hard. Zero tolerance for ignorance. Violence solves everything. I've run out of patience.

the end is near.

2007-12-01T23:25:00.000+08:00

she asks me if i knew that the end is coming.
i said no, it is just the beginning of what may come.

the scent in the air surrounds me. the cool breeze hits upon and passes through me.
it leads me to a time, back to a time when all was well. memory of my childhood revived.
happiness beyond words could describe. I knew limited vocabularies back then and it probably hindered my ability to describe the feelings i experienced. due to that, i'll just generalize all the feelings into a term known as "happiness."
sweet tingling sensation jolts through my system and left me numb.

i feel rejuvenated. that is sign that the end can't be near. when it is near, we will know. when the air is no longer light, the wind no longer blows and the sweet tingling feeling gone. the end is near.

with her around, everyday is my birthday, everyday is christmas.
life is great. call me delusional, the very least i'm saint to know that she will leave me but for whatever reasons, i do not know, yet.
i can't tolerate all the nonsense of "my darling and i have been together for *** years!" stop flaunting the time you spent together. love isn't measured with the amount of time spent. it makes me laugh. it makes me know what pathetic end you will get for having such faith in your system of gauging "love."

aww..

2007-11-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

How I envy, the mature.
When will it ever be my turn?
Being a kid isn't bad and that's the problem, I can't find any reasons to convince myself to grow up. I'm having so much fun right now. Would it still be the same?
Let's hope Army changes me, else, I'm a goner. I do not want to grow up into an useless adult! My family pampers me too much, perhaps spending time away from it will do me good.
I need a decent job that actually requires me to be responsible and independent, not forgetting a decent pay as well. My current jobs are too fun and I'm too poorly paid.
I shall strive for wealth and riches beyond my imagination. That's my first step to growing up. With that, the rest falls into place easily. Kidnappings, ransoms, arson, women and fame.

I shall make changes to my room. Give it a more grown up touch to it. Change my wardrobe too!

I believe I'll grow up to hate myself. Growing up is a fatal mistake that grown ups fail to see. I see it now but soon, I'll be blind to it.

I need to know. Enlighten me.

timberlAND

2007-11-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

I say it's too late to apologize.
too late.

simple and catchy, my kinda song. It's on continuous play since I can recall.

I want The Killers newest album, Sawdust! They are the only band that has ever made me purchase a CD. They seriously are that good.

I think I'm a Con Artist. A notch above the average swindler. I do researches on my target. I wait out for the right opportunity to strike. I practice my lines in front of the mirror just to get into the role and portray it well. It's flawless, they have taken the bait. I've always wanted to be an Artist, this counts too right?

Mature ladies like me. For how long will I be capable of sustaining that? Why aren't they hiring me for my service? Is it me or just them? I'm so broke, I'm thinking of auctioning my ass on ebay. Christmas is just round the corner, great, what else can I sell? Proverty is a bitch. I am starting to sound gay, don't I?

So much I wanna do. So little cash.

err?

2007-11-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

I've lost sight of what I want.
I need a good fight.
I need to know my strength. I thirst for more.
How much is exactly strong? When will it ever be enough?
I can't suppress it. I wish to test it out. On who? I do not know.
I need to prepare. I must be victorious.

I'm not myself.

bad habit

2007-10-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

Ngee Ann Poly.
Is there no other poly besides that?
Why does the people I ~~flirt~~ befriend seems to be coming from the same Poly I'm attending.
Is this a test of my will power or something? I'm only a mere mortal with exceeding charms. Do not tempt me, please.

I shall do something about my behaviour. It will ruin me, eventually. I do not wish to see all my efforts gone wasted. Someone is probably gloating over my path to self destruction. Fuck!

Sometimes things just can't be helped. It runs in the blood. I probably have to undergo a blood transfusion or something to truly rid/cleanse/ whatever the evil in me.

I'm disappointed in myself. I truly am. This prove I've still got some self dignity left in me. Thought I sold it off the moment..whatever.

Kids are adorable. I love them. It's the only time I ain't racist. I want my own but I don't wanna be a dad. Is there such a thing? The responsibility is too great. I might just mess them up, they might just end up like me. The thought of that sends creeps down my back. Could you imagine, streets filled full of me? Me making out with me and thus leading to more me! haha.

Mushroom head girlfriend. Trust me. I look but never touches. I say but never true. It is only work. I'm a liar, a flirt, a whatsoever, only when I work. Money is the root of all evil, I'm working under it, I have to be evil.
Unless you wanna feed me for the entire life and get me my limegreen volkswagen bettle else I can't quit.

casanova

2007-10-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

I know what makes your heart melt.
I know what the little twitch in your lips means.
I know what goes on in your little mind.
I'm an Esper.
Let's have fun.

Life is great. Just hearing all the mishap people faces make mine a whole lot greater. You need comparison in life. The contrast in things show a wider picture. Happiness is within your own grasp. Laugh at the poor for living in poverty. Only then, will your senses re awake and you realize " I'm fortunate." So what would it be?

Have a heart and no one pities you.

break up.

2007-10-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

I finished the entire tube of Yakult. It was something I've done before. Somehow, it just doesn't feel the same. Probably it's because I'm with mushroom head girlfriend this time round. I'm not saying that it's bad or anything. In fact, I like it. It was fun. Something had not changed despite all this while, me. I still like to have fun. It was fun drinking the entire tube of Yakult back then, it still is now. Perhaps, what I deem fun might not be to them. I'm much more concern of my own personal satisfaction than to actually have a moment to spare a thought for them. I'm too busy over myself, do forgive me. You just gotta cope with it.

Love me, stay with me.
Love me, you left me.

Contradicting isn't it? When you taught me to love is to stay by one an other's side. The next, you left and said it's love. Was I not obedient enough? Oh, you ran out of patience.

You got my mind in a whirl. My life all mess up. Somehow, I'll be haunted by this experience for the entire life. In return, I've learnt to be patient. I'll torment anyone who upsets me so painfully slow, it seems time has never existed. I'm mentally unsound. At times, or rather majority of it. I spent my time, thinking of all the sick things I would do to you just to make me feel better. It sure felt great, but in reality, I didn't had the guts to do it and it sure drained whatever little happiness in me away. Maybe, it's time to make it all come true.

Mushroom head girlfriend mind must be all messed up by now. She could never understand whatever I blog. It sets her mind into many different state when she tries to visualise, understand or simply just trying to read it. She scares herself silly. Could I be blogging about our break up? Just because she sees the title. Could I be in love with whoever I had a tube of Yakult with? Just because I said I've done it before. In short, don't worry about the unnecessary. Stay true to me and I'll do the same. Faithful is what I am. Though lying seems to make up majority of me too. haa.

Why am I even blogging so much? I do not know myself either. I'm drifting away. I can't control myself. Something is taking over. It definitely ain't nice. I seriously should have went gym and skip the KFC buddymeal and the Dim Sum and the Turkish cusine. Mushroom head girlfriend pampers me too much. I exploit her goodness and manipulates it. I'm that evil. Anyway, if I'm wrong I will admit it. Ask around, you will be shock. Do not assume I'm wrong and make me apologize. I will do as told but it doesn't mean I agree to it. I'm tolerating your wilfulness. I'm that good.

So am I good or evil? I do not know.

nights

contagious.

2007-10-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

I work for money. Everyone does. I do like my job but I love getting paid for doing what I like even more. I can't seem to understand why peoples think I work for the sake of fun? Seriously, I do not know what goes through their minds. Fun factor in a job does not fill my tummy, it's my salary that does. I'm pretty annoyed, I can't even think right. Oh well, the very least I appear as a spendthrift and not a scrooge.

Holiday is coming to an end. The government will soon be aftering me. Soon, if I had yet to complete my NS enrollment before the due date and at the rate I'm going, it's pretty high. Somehow, I could foresee myself getting thrown into jail already. Haa. Squatting in a corner of my cell, drawings circles on my freshly shaved head.Staring out through the gaps between the cold steel bars which holds me in captivity. Separating the free and the not-so-free.

Time for bed. I should start preparing myself for NS. Goodbye nice fluffy pillows and spring filled bed. It's time to bring in the straw mattress and ticks infected blanket. What seperates a boy from a man? The ability to tell if it's a harmless bug which flew onto the blanket or it's just blood sucking ticks awaiting for fresh blood.

I'm lonely. Let's hope it changes.

me? really?

2007-10-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

This quiz caters to those who can't seem to make up their minds on what they exactly are or what they wanna be. with this, sculpting your individual character coudl never get any easier. You are what it says. Don't bother to think if it makes sense at all, you probably ain't good at that, if you are, you would not have tried some senseless quiz.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

I think this quiz is a bogus, seriously. Haa. Well, it is true if I ever chose to live my life in self deception. Oh wait, I'm living in one. I'm the absolute adorable And =) This is a fact, a reality.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

tuna sandwiches

2007-10-01T15:38:00.000+08:00

Tuna, a kinda fish, high in omega 3 fats, my lunch, my dinner for the rest of whoever knows.
Wholemeal bread, bread filled with holes.
Pepper, a spice most commonly use.

Weiming is suffering from extreme stess, resulting in the inability to consume food and constant chest pain. One member down. Did he turn to a certified doctor? Personally, I would have diagnose him as a case of dengue fever.

Jiayong had his foot pierce by a satay stick while out having fun at his friend's chalet. Another member down. He deserved it. haa.

Final member left, And the absolute adorable. He can't stand dirt despite living in one. Dirt at the workshop just ain't the same as the one he lives with. There's different grades for dirt, you know?

In short, we're doomed!

Clever little And decides to head to the gym during FYP hours. Wise decision made I must say, truely a genius. Haa. Let's hope that particular someone doesn't surf blog.

Bumped into Aaron at the gym. And vows to destroy him! Haa. A story needs some rivalry.

End.

Oh, And went around sending sms to girls! Shh..don't tell mushroom head girlfriend.

The sms goes like this..

This is And the absolute adorable from River Island =) he would like to know you msn address so he could stalk you better. Haa.

From this we can conclude, he isn't in his right mind and is suffering from severe stress. Show some love. Play a part in lose a breast or two foundation.

Bellboy

2007-09-27T15:52:00.000+08:00

Unless I'm paid for it, I ain't your bellboy. Stop your Dinging! I'll make you into mushroom soup.

Weiming always had a history of nosebled since young. I seem to know what causes it. Behold!

Sleepwalking I've heard of. Self abuse while sleeping? This is a first. Haa.

Marriage. Breakup. Whatever it is, if it ain't happening on me it's a dandy thing. My happiness builds up as you plunges into sorrow. Show me the tears!

I had a dream. Even in it, I knew you couldn't be true. Reality creeps in, there's no fairytale. No rest for the wicked, it's true. I heard there's a quota for the admission of people into Heaven. More friends for me, the leftovers.

Weilong. Weilong. Loves a girl. She shall not be named, knows.

for reasons unknown

2007-09-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

Why can't I curse and swear? Mom says it is because I received educations *note* she did not use well educated. Yes, educations. That's where I learnt my alphabets F-U-C-K. Oh, if not for educations I probably would mis-pronounce it as FART.

Why can't I pick a fight or engage in one? Mom says that it would upset her. Did I listened to her? Nope. Every little thing upsets her, here's one more to add to her list. My mom is strong, she can take it.

5 minutes left for blogging. My mistake, make it 4 minutes.

I'm still a kid they say. It will remain that way until I received my Volkswagen Beetle. I'm not really proud to be a kid. Guess that I really am growing up, if it was in the past, I can't recall the past. Haa.

I wanna be a monster in human form. Think Jay Cutler. Too much protein has gone to my head. Beginning to speak Gym. See only veins and muscles. Hear grunts and groans. Smell, let's not get to there.

Bedtime.

2007-08-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

enough of the excuses. save it. i've had enough.
you're late and that's final.
it has and always will be your greatest flaw, incapability to stick to punctuality.
i do not like to make others wait. you should not and must not make me wait.
you set the time, the place. you had better be there, on time and exactly as you said you would. i will be there on time and exactly where you said i should be, because i've given you my words. i will fucking make my way there, nothing will stop me. you are late even when you are the one doing the planning? incredible, is your plan all about being late.
you do not get away for being late because you aren't local or just because you are a girl. Male or female, you don't make me wait.
fuck you, if you think guys are suppose to wait for girls. my job is to fuck you, that is what it is all about.
i curse and swear. I ignore you. i beg you, use the brain of yours. leave me in this way, you are much safer this way.
one day, it will all turn silent.
for now, i do not want you late. it is that simple, be punctual. cut the crap, i want hear nothing of your lateness.

pigeon.

2007-08-30T09:24:00.000+08:00

A pigeon hurled a piece of bread at my feet!
I wonder, how did it know I was hungry. Haa.
Anyway, thanks for offering me a share of your breakfast.

Today is gonna be such a great day. Okay, maybe not. My screen just flickered.Curses!

Nothing out of the norm happened on the way to school. Would having my foot pricked by a splinter make it anywhere near interesting? Well, if it does. You are probably a sadist. Oh, it didn't hurt at all. Haa. How's that for your sick ego.

My brain juice is kinda low. My tummy hurts or is it just plain hungry. Okay, it is hungry. I just heard a loud growl from it. Feeling kinda drowsy. My flu medicine must be kicking in right now. Before I slip into unconsciousness, here's how I'll look.

Yes, I am that cute.
My eyes are drawing the curtains.
Gonna have lunch at SIM~
Chicken chop.
Zzz..

Mr Fabulous

2007-08-29T11:51:00.000+08:00

New layout. Black and white with a dash of grey. Mesmerizing. It draws me into blogging my entire day away.

I was planning to use that but my laptop gave up on me while I was working my way through editting the layout.

What can I say? I've got a soft spot for monsters =)
Perhaps I should manage another blog. I could tag myself on both blog or even criticize myself. Haa. What great fun I would have.

Life's great. Despite getting stuck in school from 9 to 5. It's a blessing in disguise, seriously. It's the monsoon season. People are getting drenched out there even with their brolly and here I'm all nice and dry, typing away on my laptop. What more could I possibly ask for?

It's lunch time! I'm starving. Guess what? The rain has stopped. Off for lunch.

New layout. New beginning. New luck.

scratchy

2007-08-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

It has been a week and my throat still feels scratchy. The doctor prescription doesn't seem to be working its magic. Perhaps, it only works on normal people. I ain't nowhere near normal, with the imagination I have.

My laptop is cranky. Once in a while, the screen fades out into a white. Yes, white. A slight smack on the keyboard seems to jolt it back to life. Delicate care in handling technology? What a laugh. There's nothing like a good 'O' fashion hard love for hardware.

My neck is pretty sore. The feeling of nothingness fills me. I just wanna laze around. I'm not concern about being absent for gym or I'm gaining fats instead of muscle mass. Just plain tired. I'm giving myself a personal time till Monday. After that I'll work my ass off, I promise.

Final year project.
Gym.

Sickness please leave me. Torment someone else. I don't wanna lose weight.

habits.

2007-08-16T21:52:00.000+08:00

I skipped meals again. I'm super duper hungry n-o-w! Laziness has taken over me, I'm at its mercy. It does not want me to lift a finger, neither does it wants me to think. It just wants me dead. Great, now it wants me to blog without my eyes. My eyes are shut dead, probably require a crowbar to pry it loose.

I'm a LOUSY boyfriend. I did not, I repeat again, I DID NOT send my girlfriend home. Who's the bloody tard that claims good boyfriend are people that send their girlfriend home and those that doesn't are scumbags. Say it in my face and that's the last thing you ever get to see. Relationships are troublesome. If this current one doesn't work out. I'll stay single with lots of flings.

I do not smoke nor gamble. Yet, I still ended up as a LOUSY boyfriend. Oh wait, I flirt, a whole lot. This probably make up for the bad habits I'm lacking. Musicians are weird, my girlfriend is one. They seem to be constantly living in their own world. You definitely do not want to know what goes on in their world. I took a peek, it traumatize me far worst than BARNEY and TELETUBBIES did to me.

I do like hanging around so called "musicians." If reality was a puzzle and each of us is a piece of puzzle, they are so making me fit into reality. They just seem to be on a different waveband. The atmosphere around them just isn't the same. Another dimension I would say. You start to picture things from another different perspective which would have never had occurred to you, but it did, just because you cross over to their world for that very brief seconds when you brushed shoulder against them. It makes you think being gay is even alright. They are dangerous. They should be contained in a DOME, the one used in SIMPSONS THE MOVIE.

I feel artistic, I can sing, I am a Pianist. Most of all, I feel sick.
Do not judge me. Do not compare. Do not think you do not.
Pretty soon. It might go *poof*

My joints are aching. My upper body seems to have grown too much for my knees to handle. Enough of bench press, time to hit the squats. Our bodies are amazing. Feed it, strain it, it grows. What else could we possibly do? Morph into werewolves? Humans have been around for so long, why aren't we unlocking the secrets to our minds, bodies, ourselves? Instead, we take time to explore the unexplored. Searching for dinosaurs, hunting for aliens, flying to the moon. Dumb shits!

I am the only one. I am alone. I am your saviour.

me.

2007-08-15T18:27:00.001+08:00

i see not so alive people.

2007-08-13T10:11:00.000+08:00

I've been seeing some crazy shits lately and I don't like it a wee bit at all.

Toilets flushing on their own when no one uses it. It definitely ain't fitted with a sensor.
Spooky meter: spooky!

Doors closing on its own. I'm not talking about lifts or automated door over here. Just plain old wooden doors.
Spooky meter: spooky!

Things moving on its own.
Spooky meter: god damn spooky!

Oh, I almost forgot, Hungry Ghost Festival starts now.

Be afraid, very afraid.

Spread the words people.

ultraman.

2007-08-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm sick since yesterday. It ain't getting worst nor showing signs of recovery. Even when I'm ill, I'm still pretty tough to figure out.
My body doesn't feel like mine. It feels heavy, or have I put on weight?
Whenever I inhale or exhale, my throat and along with my chest hurts. It feels like having someone yanking at both sides of my neck. The feeling is so familiar, feels like the time when I had Heartburn a.k.a. a taste of heart attack that can't kill you.
Let's not get to the food part, it is just plain torture when it merely comes to swallowing my very own saliva.
Mushroom head girlfriend was kind enough to cook for me despite being ill too. Now we know who made sick don't we?

Important thing is, I completed my NAFA despite feeling like crap. I might even get a Gold. I swear I'll never put myself through physical and mental strain when ill. I'm just pushing my luck, several times my body sent out beeping sounds like the way Ultraman does when he fails to defeat the monster in the certain time and his body can't withstand Earth's atmosphere. I finally know how Ultraman felt and it ain't great. I believe there's an Ultraman in all of us. I changed into a second form and completed my NAFA.

With my second form, I went and gym. I'm definitely asking to be sent back to outer space. Did the usual stuffs. Felt like dying after all of it. Ultraman only had to fight monster for 5 minutes over a half hour show and you get to catch him same time same channel again some other days. NAFA started at 4.30, I finished gym at 8.30. If you don't see anymore entries after this one, I'm probably off the channel, joining Ultraman in his deep slumber.

*poof*

the day i grew.

2007-07-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today shall mark the day I grow. 30/07/07

My Cookie and Cream flavoured Whey Protein just came in. I'm damn thrilled to taste it out. Opening up the bottle ain't as easy as I thought it would. It was stated on the bottle " Cut along the dotted lines slow and carefully." If you were thinking how hard could it possibly get? Well, you definitely have not tried holding back anxiety that transmits the thought of "RIPPED IT! SMASH IT!" through the body before, have you?

I took 5 minutes to cut along the dotted lines. I swore I almost cut the whole lid off. The moment the wrapping came off, *poof* a really sweet scent started escaping through the bottle and made its way through my nostrils. Did I mention I was drooling?

Took a scoop of the powder, mixed it up with 2 scoops of oatmeal and half a glass of milk. Gave it a really good stir and drank it. My throat hurts. It tasted sinister sweet. The taste is still clinging in my throat, worst of all, it wouldn't go down or out of my throat.

76 more servings of it to go. May I grow with each intake.

Gym day tomorrow. Gotta dress smart casual for Jerome's prize giving ceremony too. Jerome likes the girl with tattoo on her right shoulder. Tattoo has such an amazing effect on guys when it is etched over on a girl's skin. How we wished we were the needles of the tattoo pen, making our way over their skin, leaving the trace of our existence permanently. Haa.

Fuck! Jerome just msn me that Panel 3 has been postponed to 10 August. Thank you lord for answering to my prayers! WE ARE SAVED!

I'm seriously broke. No money in my wallet. Not a single cent. Z-E-R-O!
I still need to purchase the shaker bottle. Oh, it was a lady who delivered my order to my place. She had to carry 5kg! What are the guys out there thinking, making a lady do the delivering?

I am truly a gentleman or at least pretending to be. Just ask my girlfriend. She knows it best. Freaking mushroom she is. Beat me at the slapping game http://nigoro.jp/game/rosecamellia/rosecamellia.php This game must be made for girls. I'm darn good at games compared to her. Somehow, this game allows her to have an edge over me.

I hate games. Shall work on my body instead. Nights.

Mr Deed.

2007-07-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, met up at the library to get some work done for the final presentation. It was a cold day but a nice one. There was a light fog, the wind was icy cold and it was really peaceful. If time simply pause at that moment, I wouldn't really mind. Being all alone isn't that bad, maybe I do have Autism. For those who've got no idea what it is, google it!

As usual Jiayong, the leader was late but this time round only for an hour. Someone applause for him please for this is the earliest he has even been. Doesn't anyone stick to "Punctuality" anymore? Punctuality is love, get it into your head people!

Weiming started smoking again. He abstain from cigarettes for 2 weeks, gotta give him some credit for trying. He is less cranky when he has his daily dose of nicotine. I'm totally alright if he smokes, not around me that is.

The library was pretty empty. Weiming and I grabbed a hand load of magazines. We've long expected that Jiayong would be late. We were merely hopping that he would have gotten to school when we were done reading/flipping through those magazines. Oh, we were 3/4 through the pile of magazines when he arrived. Seriously, we were amazed.

We weren't really putting our minds into the presentation. We were simply turning up to make ourselves feel good. Feeling good about actually making an effort to be in school on a weekend and not the amout of work done, if any that is. So basically we were faking it through the whole 3 hours. Trying to deceive one another, putting on an act that "Hey, I'm working harder than you. If we fail, it totally ain't my fault." If any of them is reading this, take some time and think. You know what I'm saying is right. If we fail, we have ourselves to blame. Fuck! I hate growing up. I'm starting to feel responsible and along with it comes guilt. The guilt of knowing what could set things right but not doing. Probably because I am a Libra.

When the 3 hours were up. Weiming and I headed for the gym. Time to de-stress. We ran 2.4km, hit the weights and felt really sore all over after all that. We couldn't lift our arms, our legs would't budge and the aching wouldn't go away either. But, somehow we felt good. Our bodies were releasing chemicals into our brains. I can't recall the name for it but lets call it "Happy chemicals." So with all the "Happy chemicals" in my bloodstream, I was basically happy. It was drizzling when we left. The weather made my mood even better. The chemicals made me went up to a girl and asked her if she needed help with the heavy bag she was carrying on her shoulder. I was merely thinking in my head " Miss, would you like me to help you with those? *pointing finger at her shoulder*" and before I realise, I had already said those words out. She was gaving me a what's-with-him kinda look and rejected my offer. I was kinda freak out with myself and hurried my way up the flight of steps of the overhead bridge. I swear she was gonna take the bridge, I analyse the route she was taking and therefore the idea of acually helping her with the bag came to me. It seem cruel to see a girl making up a flight of steps with sucha heavy load. I turned back to check if she had trouble making up the stairs and if she did, I would have snatch the bag from her. Whoever that could have guess what happened next is god. She took a cab! I seriously swear I freaked her out. I could have sworn she was gonna take the bridge. Who would in their right mind not wait at the bus stop for a cab when it is drizzling and when there were plenty of seats for her to set her bag on. It would be plain crazy to take a really long walk from the bus stop to the bridge to get a cab. She must be thinking that I'm a lunatic when she board the cab.

I'm such a fool.
No one trust anyone anymore.
We're doom.

friends.

2007-07-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

Panick! at the Disco is so darn good. Three thumbs up. I borrowed my girlfriend's thumb.

Gyming is great fun. If you had friends like mine. I seriously doubt so, but, they're for sale. Any takers? haa.

We're a bunch of clowns. We do silly things to one another for entertainment. There's never a dull moment with them around. Right now, we like picking on Weilong. We like to see him go all emo at the mention of the FMS girl. They dated one another, in the past. He would gourge himself with plentiful of food. He claims it is for bulking up. But we know the real story. Frustrations all vented out, what took over and left in his heart was lonliness and he fills it up with food. Poor thing, have pity on him. Won't you Muchacha?

I so love to match make people up. It is a hell lot of fun seeing them getting all awkward at the sight of each other. Did I mention I suck at it?

*MY PROGRESS REPORT*

I can do 5 pull ups on my very own. Run 2.4km in 11.30 minutes. 49cm for seat and reach. 50 seat ups in a minute. 220cm for standing broad jump. Probably 10 seconds for shuttle run. I took a minute and thirty seconds to complete 400m.

*JEROME'S REPORT*

Jerome ran 2.8km. Reason behind his sudden increase in stamina was probably due to the Magnum Force girl running infront of him. His eyes were glued to her butt. His diet is shifting him into hibernate mode.

Talk about hibernate. I need to sleep.

update the rest of his amazing achievements tomorrow.

changed.

2007-07-22T22:16:00.001+08:00

I need a new blog skin. One that is straight forward that does not requires any clickings. Just something simple. Simplicity is heaven. At this point, I'm thinking of some Bombastic words to describe the blog skin I want, sadly, I discovered how limited my vocabulary is. It sucks, when you aren't capable of conveying your feelings in the form of words. Dictionary where are you?

River Island Sale is still on. No further reduction yet. Gap is having it though! I like the colour banana. Shall wear it tomorrow.

While working today, I saw Mr Cowboy. He rememebers me! I like it when someone remembers me. Mr Cowboy is a lecturer who taught me in my second year. How should I describe him? Let's say he is those ugly grown up that became lecturer. When I say ugly, it isn't his looks that I'm talking about. It's his attitude, his mindset and all the grown up stuffs. He was always giving us the nasty look on his face. Nose helded high, zero eye contact from him. He looks happy this time round. Perhaps, rather please that a student actually greets him. I swear, no one else greets him with a smile except me. Did I mention it was part of my job to smile? Anyway, he changed! From the nasty man he once was to a not so nasty man. He appears friendly but looks are deceiving. I still have my doubts about him but I certainly am glad that he bothered to put up a false front even if he is still that mean deep down.

tired. need sleep. shall continue. sentences are jumbled up. my feeling is in a mess. the righteousness is getting to me. hell, i don't even know what i'm talking about.

reset.

2007-07-19T21:06:00.000+08:00

My eyes hurt. They are tearing. Finally, some tears. I'm so loving it.

I wanna know everyone. All their secrets. Their thoughts, emotions and every lil thing.

I so hate the word "Everything."

I like the colour banana.

I miss my dogs. All three of them.

I like my bunny rabbit after it showers. It stinks most of the time. One sniff and you're out cold.

I like girls with fair complexion. They're so yummy looking.

My girlfriend is charcoal black. She tastes funny. I like her all the same.

I like myself. I could spend the entire day staring at my reflection in the mirror, with my makeup on that is.

Best friend. Friend. Fiend.

Monday is library day. Tuesday is waffle day. Wednesday is dress girl day. Thursday is muchacha day. Friday is facial day. Saturday is self indulgence day. Sunday is x day.

I'm very imaginative.

I'm a poet.

I like high protein low carbohydrate food. It makes me grow.

I'm 188cm. 190cm with shoes on. 71kg. 80kg is my target.

good night.

This entry. Is to. Remind me. Of what. I am.

Escape.

2007-07-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

Fong's clutches of Doomability.
Every Thurday and Friday.
Starring: Me, the rebel. Weiming, the freaking pale face drug lord. Jiayong, the "fat one" as Fong would put it.
How will the tragedies unfold? Will the plot thickens or would it end up as Fong's favourite quote "You jokers jolly well know what is in it for you, the game is up"?

I should freaking be doing my sketches for my designs. I've got no mood. The thought of attending school with Fong lurking around somewhere simply turns me off. I miss the days where the sweet innocent me would just head to school and do sweet lil things to pass his time. I'm not making sense, I know but bear with me. On the verge of chewing my own hands off. Okay, I'm making it up. Haa. I do have some sense of humour left in me. Great! I used it up in this entry.

Gotta type fast. Be fast. Real fast. Work work work.

I've put on weight. Been gourging myself with junk food. Not just any junk food mind you. It is HIGHMSG junk food. Having problems forming complete sentences in my mind. I've got to type it out, stare deep at it and "cut" "paste"it around till it comes together and mean..something. Yes, this is how stress out I'm. Planning to just break out in tears infront of Fong tomorrow, if he ever raise his voice at me or do what he is really good at, failing me. I seriously swear I've a mental issue. *Paused* My mind stopped responding for a minute. Thoughts of nothing came up. Can you feel me? Is there anything worse than nothing?

Gyming my ass off lately. 3 times a week I hit the gym. I love myself even more. Totally obsess with moi. An hour left for me to complete my ka-zillions sketches that somehow I don't see them getting completed. Wee~ If only they would draw themselves. Fuck. I thought I saw the pencil moving.

Why can't the world be a better place, one that would me drag going to sleep. My gf told me I'm a very very complicated person. I swore I should have studied poetry and love making. Oh, if you guys can't seem to get any ideas of what I've been typing so far. Read and think hard. Images are suppose to come up in your mind. If not, I totally suck at the "hidden-image-flashing-out-of-words-with-hidden-meanings-0f-producing-hidden-image-out-of-words-with-hidden-meaning" technique.

Okay. Off to draw. I'm praying, not to be an ugly grown up when I grow up. Somehow, the thought seems very unlikely. You kids are screwed!

the end is near.

2007-07-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

The end is near.
Ask me why.
Why?

Final year project has been a mess. I seriously wonder what are the things that go through the minds of so called "Adult." Why do they think they are always right? Why are they pushing us around with what they deem as "Authority of the grown ups." They think that they have an ability far superior than the Sorting Hat from Harry Potter, their x-ray plus future sight vision. One look at us and we are worthless jokers that are taking up too much of their precious oxygen, our existence is their extinction. They are all out to wipe us off, not a trace of our existence is to be left. Okay, some shall be merciful by failing us in our final year project. Thanks a lot for letting us embark on a trip to failure.

I'm breaking down. I'm kinda ashame to admit it. I wanna take the easy way out. Can't we just fight this out? No, and it's not verbally. I'll kill you if it earns me a pass in my final project. I swear I will not hesitate. The disgusted look you have on your face every time you see us, for that, you earn yourself a slow death.

I've been gyming. Be warned.

I've been thinking lately. Did we cause our on downfall? Was Karma or Fate behind all this? What have I done to deserve this? So much questions that lead to nothing. It is driving me nuts. I'm thinking of her. Now I know I'm definitely losing it. Whenever I'm left with nothing that answer my questions, she pops up. It is more of a feeling, can't really describe it but one thing for sure, it is torturous. I do not love her or like her or hate her or dislike her. Would you say something like " I hate/love this stranger whom I've never met in my life." Nonsense isn't it? Before you come claiming I've got feelings for her. Think of how stupid you make yourself sound knowing that it would be saying something as above.

Be punctual and I'll love you more.
Every minute that slips away, so does my love for you.
My love for you is not infinity. I'm being realistic. I'm no great monk who spreads love all over the world that touches heart. I've yet to achieve enlighterment and perhaps never will.
Meanwhile, lets make it last.

I've written a whole lot. If you could get any of it in. I've not blog in vain.

ain't worth your penny.

2007-04-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

The number of days that I could work are four. FOUR DAYS! All I've gotten? One pathetic saturday.
You know how much the company values you when all you ever get is just one day out of a week roaster. I sure know my worth now. What that is getting to me is that they do NOT remember the days I could work on or rather bother, even after I've sent an sms over clearly starting the days and the time fearing they would just forget about it if told verbally. I guess it'll be pointless to stay on. Right now, I'm think of Forever 21.

Why does some people wanna put me down when I'm all so geared up for action? It is so tough to find a job that I like and people appreciates the efforts I've put in. Is the problem me or is it just them? I seriously wonder.

Over blog by a minute. All this while I've been fighting against time. Hoping to complete this entry by midnight. I've failed.

My elbow ain't working. My knee is aching. My ankle is trying to feign sick. My body is giving up on me. My eyes are rejecting contact lenses. They've stopped producing tears as well. My eyes are drier than a dried up well. How long would I be out of action? Nearly a month since I've really put my right hand to use. I've stopped jogging for two weeks. The amount of injuries obtained from Kickboxing must have mountained over time and has finally taken its toll on me. Of all time, why in my third year! I so wanna be remembered. Come to think of it, are what I mentioned symthoms of Parkinson disease?

It is 12.15am. I need my sleep. I need money. Okay, before I head for bed. I'm gonna wish that when I wake up, I'm a better person. Oh wait, I already am a better person. Haa.

Dreams are reality that has yet to finalize. It is like a trailer of a movie. Sneak previews into the future or the past or even now. One thing that I'm certain, it leaves me wondering if I really am certain on the whole dream thing. Hmm.. so am I really certain?

new.

2007-04-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

School has started and it sucks.
Why?
Think extremely long hours. 8am to 5pm with only an hour break. Worst part, stuck in a class of 48 and excluding Weiming and I the remaining 46 are strangers to us. Isn't it great? Start making friends all over again in the 3rd year.

The freshies this year are kinda... fresh?
I've layed my eyes on Lil Miss Sunshine. I know I shouldn't but a lil sun never hurts. Haa. Watch out. I'm gonna soak up the sun~

CCA open house was fun.
I've been mistaken for a freshie! Just when I thought I was growing old. Sometimes it just takes a lil mistake to brighten someone else's life, my life that is.
I so miss school. Too bad the library girls graduated last semester. Time to find new ones. Bye Eileenah and Nor! If those were even their real names.

Working tomorrow at River Island. Probably be dumped in the stockroom. What have I done to deserve this? Whatever it is, I've just got to bear it. I so need money. Any rich Tai Tai interested in me? Tag me ya?

Off to bed. Can't seem to type much. I wanna upload pictures. Probably should seek help, professional help.
Nights everybody. Okay, maybe just somebody. Not much people frequent my blog anyway. *sigh*

step upon a snail

2007-04-15T23:12:00.000+08:00

I've been hit with random thoughts and memories for the past few days. They just appear out of nowhere and sneak into my head. One minute I was watching TV and the next *poof* I recalled " step upon a snail, fever befalls upon you." It might make no sense to you guys but it does to me, a whole lot. Anyway, some stuffs you simply just can't get rid of, they just continue to torment you. Why not make good use of it then? What can't kill you only makes you stronger.

Deep down, I wanna press pause or even better, rewind.

I fixed my hand =) What was supposing to cost a mere $15 turned out costing $35. It has better make my hand work like it used to or I'll tear the shop down, I seriously mean it. I've still got my left hand. Right now no training, gym, basketball or anything that will make use of my hands can be done. In short, I'm pretty much wasted.

School starts tomorrow. How exciting!

I'm tired. Shall continue this entry next time.

like a something in a something.

2007-04-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

Work work work.
Up down up down up down.

Been busy working my ass off at River Island. Sometimes things just aren't what it sounds. *sigh*
I swear my calf/calve muscles are tougher, thanks to the countless times of ladder climbing. I should be in the Guiness World Record for the most number of steps climbed. If it takes 1 minutes to climb to the top of a 10 steps ladder. How many steps would And have covered in 9 hours? Have fun counting, I know I did until I lost count.

I've been placed at the stockroom. Reception in there is bad. It is filled with TONNES of stuffs. From your everyday lingerie to anything you could imagine. So far so good, no roaches in sight. There isn't much fresh air just plentiful of dirt and dust. On the bright side, wait, what bright side is there to working at the stockroom?

I'm so beat from all the HARD WORK. So not ready for adult life. Could we hit restart? Please?

My mind is switching off on me. I think I'm beginning to type something random.

Since a week has past. I shall compile everything into a lil something.
Collected my salary from Swiss Culture. Yea! I'm rich. Got mom to bank in the cheque. I so suck at remembering my bank account number. Turned out it was banked in on a Saturday and I had to wait till Monday to get my money. In a blink of a eye, it is Monday! Hooray! How ironic, I've no idea where's the ATM machine for VivoCity. Okay, found it. What!! No money? What the * insert various vulgarities* Called mom up and whine about not having any money in the bank and suspected her for pocketing my cheque. Trust no one, not even when the cheque has your name written on it and it ain't possible for your mom to bank it under her name. Who knows? She might just like the cheque itself and wanna keep it.

Somehow I've the feeling I missed something out.
Nevermind.
They will remind me when they feel like it.
Nights.

River Island boy.

2007-04-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

I got in.
Yes.
Into River Island.
I'm now your Sales Advisor. How may I help you?

For those who are interested, do think twice!
Unless you wanna be a FULL TIME staff, that's another story. Get it?
I'm not allowed to disclose anything or that's what it says in the "contract."
I've to keep everything hush hush and mind what I'm blogging.

It's gonna be my first day of work starting tomorrow. I seriously hope I've gotten the time right. Is it 8 or 10 that I'm suppose to be there? Hmm..probably 10 for 8 would be a wee bit too early don't you think. Let's hope this job is what I thought it would be or the least make it an enjoyable one.

My mind is all filled with the thoughts of earning more money. Why? I don't know. Neglected my training. Stopped working out. My elbow still hurts a lot. Fuck! I seriously ought to get my hand fix, it is starting to become a hindrance. No more gathering with family or friends. If I still have friends that is. Life just isn't what it used to be.

Headed over to Marina South for steam boat. If I had known, you wouldn't catch me there. We managed to hit the sales target and it was a treat from my boss at Swiss Culture. Remind me to come up with some excuses next time. I think my stomach is sick. Just plain horrible.

So much memories have come back to me.
Mainly the ones from my childhood.
I kinda surprise myself, I've been to Marina South. I always thought that I've never been there before since it sounded rather far and so unfamiliar to me. Kite flying is the only thing I could remember for Marina South. Family outings were spent there when I was a kid. As time past, the memories seem to have faded or locked up and hidden from me.
Feels good to have them back.
I heard that those who looks back at the past and finds comfort in them are sentimental people. Am I one? haa.

Time for bed.
Wish me tonnes of luck.
Girlfriend coming back soon.
I've finally outdone myself. I've not been up to anything funny all this time when she's gone. What exactly is wrong with me? I think this would what people call as mature. Let's hope they are right.
Are you reading this? I deserve a reward don't I.
Get me my dog!!

fix me up.

2007-04-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

Ouch! I'm having a hard time typing this entry. Ouch! All thanks to my right elbow which has ballooned to half the size bigger than it used to. Ouch!

The rest of the entry shall be completed with my left hand. Thanks god for giving me TWO hands!

I'm gonna take you through with me on the quest for the Chinese Sinseh.
You might be thinking how hard can it possibly get? Very tough I would say. For a start, all the really good Chinese Sinseh has pretty much kick the bucket or forced to wind up their business because this business now requires a LINCENSE to prove that they are infact certified to go around dislocating and re-attaching your bones to make you feel all better or a whole lot worst. Lastly it ain't easy telling apart a Traditional Chinese Sinseh clinic/shop from foot reflexlogy.( simply put, it is foot massage) They uses the term "Traditional," "Authentic" on their signboards along with some massive chinese fonts. Oh..not forgetting the interior designs are pretty much the same. A couple of cushioned chairs, the posters showing the parts that humans consist of.

I'm too tired to carry on.
Off to bed.
Shall edit this some other time.
Nights and Ouch!

I don't really mind.

2007-03-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

The Killer rocks!
Youtube them if you have no idea what I'm talking about *wink*

I've an interview over at River Island tomorrow. Wish me lots of luck! If all works out, I'll be a sales advisor~
Sales advisor sounds neat doesn't it, that's what drawn me in to fill up the application form besides all the really HOT girls in there!! haa.

I should start saving every penny I've got. Never really know the importance of saving up despite all the efforts the school had placed in trying to instill the importance of saving up for a rainy day every since Primary school. William a friend I would put it, takes an hour to walk to work. He can't afford bus rides or decent meals. It leaves me wondering the purpose of our existence and perhaps even god. Who is to help him? He feels like dying and probably had lost faith in god. What does his future holds? Life is filled with so much unknown, it irks me not knowing anything. We are being devour by it and there's nothing we could do.
It takes one to know how fortunate they really are after coming across someone else's less fortunate story. Finding comfort in others dismay you might say. Unknowningly I seem to have blabber a bit more than I normally do, feels awfully good getting this load off my mind.

My iPod ain't charged. My Dopod 838 is faulty. Laptop is covered in scratches. Do I not go well with technology? haa. My air conditioning is leaking. I guess it means a yes. Seriously I doubt anyone could beat my girlfriend. She lost several phones. Electrocuted at a young age by the TV set. Knocked down by a car. Her laptop has got tonnes of spyware and virus even with the aid of ORIGINAL anti virus she purchased at an unreasonable price. All hail the great bringer of downfall to technology. She could be Neo from The Matrix. I personally believe she is a supreme being, the great buddha or something that has been sent to earth to go through numerous turbulences/ turmoils and eventually dies of some chronic disease and thus achieve enlightenment *poof* She's back to being her Great buddha and brings relieve to the mortal realm.

Off to bed. Wanna look good for tomorrow's interview. I'm getting fat. Dope!

what?

2007-03-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

Blogspot has recovered or rather upgraded and is now out of Beta which it claims.
I seriously prefer the Beta version. The ease of login in with just a 5 characters login name is history and now replaced with a 28 characters login name. I ain't complaining, my fingers are. Mistyped my login name a couple of times. I would be pretty full if those characters had been alphabets shaped cereals, it would probably amounted to 3 large bowls.

A balance meal is essential for everyday life.
2 bananas
An apple
Countless strawberries
Half a pot of dark chocolate.
I chose to have mine fondue style =)
Ought to post the pictures but I can't recall how it was done. You can definitely bet it is healthy and YUMMY~ haa.

Ever wondered why it was "spongebob flirtypants" for my blog and wasn't anything else?
Simply because I loved Spongebob!
For now I love Patrick. He's pink!
Real men wear pink, perhaps even for starfish too.
If I were to get a new blog, you would know it is mine because it would be " Patrick the flirtystarfish."
Flirtyness exists in everybody. Deny you will but you know it is in there somewhere. I've come to term with mine. Flirt for the sake of fun and nothing else, not for pleasure nor personal gains. It ain't easy abiding to that but I'm trying. Most of the time I'll just find myself waking up on someone else's bed when I fail.

Time for bed.
You people are much safer with me asleep.
You probably would end up with a big heartache if you ever find me in your bed.
good night and sleep tight.
Lock your doors, still, I'll find my way to your heart.

illusion

2007-03-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

It's an hour and a half till bedtime.
I'm not certain why I'm even blogging. For all I know, this entry might not even appear along like the few previous entries that I painstakingly typed.
There's so much I wanna blog about.
The fear of revealing too much would end up making me vulnerable is holding me back from blogging. That's good I always tell myself for that is the only way I could keep myself safe. My mom tells me I should start opening up to people, letting them get to know the "real" me. I definitely would like to do that, seriously I would but the truth is I no longer know which is the "real" me. The point of the whole thing is I end up hurting the people who cares or I think they care or the least pretends to care about me but most of all, my girlfriend is upset.

I am such a *insert various vulgarities*

Okay. Now for some happy thoughts.

I completed the campus run in 15 minutes.
School is such an ass. The gym equipments which I want to use have been removed and replaced by some odd looking equipments that I so absolutely have no use for. My CCA does not require a pedal or whatever the thing is called that is used to row the boats. How am I to use the free weights area when I don't have a gym buddy and the last thing I want is to get pinned under the weights while attempting to bench press heavier than I could and end up dead.

I can swim =)
I believe it is called swimming even though I'm in the 1m pool and the water level is barely to my waist. I'm swimming, right?

This holiday has been rather rewarding. Tanned and equppied with another skill. One step closer to being a beach boy wouldn't you say? haa. All I've to do is to learn beach volleyball and I'm a beach boy through and through.
Imagine the girls in bikini..Ahhh~

Time to head for bed. Did I really blog this much or did i really?
Is it a compliment to be told that what I've blogged doesn't seem possible to have came out from someone like me and that all this is instead typed by someone I hired.

dope

2007-03-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

test test test

I'm coming.

2007-03-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had the experience of waking up one fine morning and something deep down inside of you is telling you it is time to move on?
Moving on to where it does not say. It simply leaves you pondering all on your own. Time seems to have stopped but you know it is just a foolish thought. Time waits for no one and all the better don't you agree? It takes 3 times longer to forget love. My time is finally up. Thank you.

Training camp was great fun!
The bond among one another is stronger, i guess or at least i hope it is.
I've been knocked back to reality. How great you were in the past IS the past. No one remembers the past.
Gonna begin from scratch.
It is back to running, sit-ups and push-ups.
I'll make my way back. I'll crush your very beliefs.
I'm coming.

sdasdadsad

2007-02-21T10:25:00.001+08:00

adsadasdadasd

test

2007-02-21T10:23:00.000+08:00

test. dope!

a gun with five bullets

2006-09-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

How long has it been?
Was it a month or two?
Doesn't matter how long I had been away.
Open up a few bottles of champagne and rejoice.
I'm back, back to stay.

Over this period of time. I've grown to know myself slightly better. Self enlightenment would be a better way to put it.
Believe me. I've changed.

Serial killer carnate with a twisted mind i must be. Just plain sick and nothing else.

What would you do if you had a gun loaded with five bullets?

Shoot my ex-girlfriend's family dead. There's the mother, father and sister. Aww..down with two bullets and just when the fun was getting started. Needless to say, one bullet would be for my ex-girlfriend. The other for me. Oh wait, I love her too much. She can have mine too.

If only things were as easy as it sounded? No worries, I've got it all planned out in my sick lil mind.

Bang bang! My baby shot me down..

Okay, so what would you guys have done? Did i mention that any slight thought of killing would just end you up as a psycho like me? But hey, i forgive you =) We are just sick without realising it. Best part of it is, there's no cure! That sure save us a whole lot of medical bills.

I'm a sick sick boy living in a sick sick world with a bunch lot of other sick sick fellas reading this sick sick blog not knowing they are the sick sick fellas what a sick sick joke.

strong

2006-09-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

Dear lord, please do not let my girlfriend stumble upon this entry.
I know you planned everything today to happen for a reason.
I ain't strong enough to take it.

I'm holding back my tears as i blog. Sounds like a joke doesn't it?
You've no idea what i've been through.

Have you truly forgotten your first love?
How does it feels to see them again?
The amount of role play you had to prepare yourself for the situation didn't even prepare you for the least?

Yes. I saw my ex gf.
Before i knew it. I was fighting back my tears.
I put on a smile. You enter the shop, you are a customer. I smile, i'm paid to do that.
I dare not held my head high.
I acted fucking weird. i just did.
Pretending to serve the customers infront of me. Trying to keep out of sight from her but yet stealing glances of her at the same time.
Please take a gun and shoot me! I seriously felt like dying.
The tears i cant fight back. The emotions are making me mixed up.
Whatever it is. It bloody hurts!

I'm msging her as i blog.
Betrayal runs through my mind.
Am i betraying my current girlfriend?
i seriously cant think. i just want the tears to stop.

What cant i let go? she asked.
i dont know. i just dont.
lets stop for now.
i just want to cry.
Dear lord. Erase her existence from me. In short, grant me Amnesia.

first

2006-09-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

It's nearly a year. Perhaps even more.

When it first started.

I knew nuts about the game you played so well.

It was my first but it has already been your third go at it.

Fairness i say. You claimed it didn't exist.

So be it. Game over.

It has been a year or perhaps even more.

I'm still at it. Figuring the game which makes no sense, the game of Love.

It's my second go at it now. All seems fine.

Fine it was, till your number showed up.

Fuck it!

I'll never get over it, first love.

September 11. Off you go, flying off to China.
Goodbye. Evil ex-girlfriend.

At times like this. How i wished "Snakes on the plane" became reality.

Hiss~
Hiss~
ARR!

POPCORNPOP

2006-08-30T14:31:00.000+08:00

My precious went "Thud!" on the ground.
It's lying so still.
My heart is aching, it seriously does.
Gave it a few hard shake. Rattling sounds seem to be coming out of it.
It didn't sound great to me.
Gave it a few hard press. It's wriggling on my hand.
ITS ALIVE~
I swear never to rush out to keep the laundry even if there's a hurricane outside.
I love you so much DOPOD 838 PRO!

Popcornpop located at both Suntec and Esplanade.
We deal in posters and toys. We are talking grown up stuffs over here.
Interested parties can find me over there.
Enough said.
Time for me to try on the X-men jackets that Wolverine and Cyclops wore in the movie. "Weapon X! GRR! Laser Beam thingy whatsoever!"
I'm so loving my job, for now.

Swiss Culture located at Suntec, opposite Toys 'R' Us.
Like to try anything Swiss? Anything?
Yummy food awaits you and me..
Love this job too.

Having 2 part time jobs can be a hassel.
The money it brings in makes it all worthwhile.
Sweet sweet Money!
Pretty pretty Girls!
All comes with the job.

Gotta run.
Busy throughout the holiday.
Miss me? Come find me =)

Nazri, I know i've grown better looking. haa.

clue-do

2006-08-18T19:48:00.000+08:00

Dopie~
:)
Feeling all so kiddish lately. Has the exam stress gotten to me? For a moment there, i almost worried if it was normal for me to be feeling that way. Why in the world am i even thinking or rather, start to think? To hell with worries, worries are for grown ups. Imma kid~ woohoo~

Anywho..here's a MAJOR p-i-c-t-u-r-e update!

Happy Bdae lil Andy & lil Dennise!
Kids these days are seriously growing up too fast. Kinda pity them, awhile ago they were still "lil" but now *poof* all grown up. Kids are toys. It aint fun when toys start thinking on their own. What use is a remote controlled car that doesnt do as told? lol

Yes, it's always the cake that catches the most attention.

Ever wondered if Blue's Clue doggy (whatever it name was) is a "he" or a "she" dog?

Now we know..dont we? lol

To prove i'm ~~virgin~~ young. The pics below explains it all..

Utterly adorable right? haa. I seem to be missing out on something. Oh heck! What was it again?

This is a lil something for the lonely hearts out there.

Eat your *toot* out! And the absolute adorable is currently unavailable.haa.

Trying to be faithful.
It is proving to be harder than i thought.
Determination beats all, or was it lust?
Call me beep me if you wanna reach me~

I saw Iris in school. Cheryl is a real meanie. Libing is meanie's new found friend. Tag me wont you guys?

evil underneath it all

2006-08-14T14:20:00.000+08:00

2 more miserable weeks to go and it's sweet F-r-e-e-d-o-m~
1 week more till exam starts!
I seriously need to be mugging but here i'm blogging *tsk tsk*

My s-i-s-t-e-r, the traitor. This could've been a catchy title for my blog, wouldn't it?
When all fails to betray you, who could you count on? Your very own s-i-s-t-e-r!
That would've been the last thought on anybody's mind. Well, you're right. Families are meant to stick together through thick and thin, not get betrayed by.
Could you guess how bad it was when i realised that my very own s-i-s-t-e-r betrayed me by heading out with the !@#$%^ behind my back?
Had she forgotten the pain i went through, the tears shed, the whatsoever thingy i did during that period of time? Clearly to me, she has clean forgotten it all.
Thanks a whole lot for ruining my ~~day~~ life.
My lips simply can't form the right form to call you s-i-s-t-e-r.

Head out with the girl who ditch your own brother, the one that left him with lil self dignity. Shamed him infront of his friends, done horrid things that she never let you finds out. Foolishly you got deceive by the smile she had when the both of you happily took snapshots together. For all that, you just lost a brother.

Time changes people. You change, i change, we change. One thing remains, i'm petty as ever.
I asked myself whether i still love her or hate her. I definitely don't love her, not a single wee bit. Oh, when i don't love somebody you can forget about the liking part that comes before love. The particular part of her that i used to love is long gone. She said it herself, so it's goodbye. About the hate? Not really, but merely to the CORE!

I didn't really asked myself all those questions, my gf did. Now you know how serious things have gotten because of what a stupid s-i-s-t-e-r of what used to be mine did. It's never a wise idea to show the pictures you took with your brother evil-sinister-devil carnate ex-girlfriend to your brother current girlfriend, especially when he is around.

Exams, girlfriend, evil ex girlfriend, mindless minion of evil ex girlfriend a.k.a s-i-s-t-e-r. Life has gotten a whole lot exciting. Anyone out there wanna have a share of it?

meet the folks

2006-08-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

Hi ya peeps~
Oh yes! i'm in a rather good mood.

THE ALL SO GREAT, And the Adorable..

Kissed goodbye to singlehood.
Who's the gay now, Mom?
This should put your mind at ease for a tinsy bit.
Your sweet lil son has got "Love" in his life now. It ain't complete though, without "Sex" and "Drugs." lol

Time to come clean. I cheat, lie and steal. In short, i'm plain bad!
How in the world did i get a girl to end up with me?
By cheating a lil, lying a tinsy bit and stealing a bit of these and that =)
What she don't know can't hurt, or can it? Oh well, guess i'll find out till then.

Meet the folks. I ain't afraid of that. Getting there, that i'm afraid. They're way over at Malaysia. Dope!
Time to work out a plan. Me having phobia of Malaysia sounds stupid doesn't it. It's such a long story that no one except me would probably understand. Guess i'll have to work this issue out my very self.

Life is pretty great. Seriously, i believe in Fate. Starting to look at the world/life in a whole different view. Every lil thing we do seems to have been planned out long ago. It's plain spooky but in a good way, so far. Is it just me or does anyone out there feel the same too?

Trust me and i'll not fail you.
Doubt me, you're long history.
Good looking guys are all bastards. I agree totally.
But still, you like it this way.
That's why you're still sticking to me.
(= i feel so proud/arrogant typing out all this.=)

Signing off before i make myself sound even more silly.
bye!

Ego

2006-07-29T12:35:00.000+08:00

Here's another entry WITHOUT picures, again. Nevertheless, read on Pee-poles (peoples) =)

Utterly broke i'm! Before you Pee-poles let your thoughts run wild. I'm broke as in being pennyless and not heart broken. How could i've gotten my heart broken when i've no heart to start with? Haa. It's great to be heartless~ No sense of guilt or whatsoever.

Exams are pretty near. Time to panick *screaming about in a pair of undies, Spongebob style* My mood has gotten all better now =)

What's the biggest thing a guy can ever have? No idea? It's his Ego!
Slowly, bit by bit i'm changing into what i dread most. An egoistic person. Is it a good thing or bad? I've got no idea but i feel so good about myself though. Oh, wait! i don't think i'm changing into an egoistic person but into something violent. Can't really go into much detail but i'm definitely violent. Stay away from me folks!

It's raining. How nice~
Down comes the rain.
Wash away my sins.
May my sins pollute the rest of their minds.

Doesn't seem to rhyme. Doesn't sound like mine. What a waste of time.

I'm off. Till then. Keep missing me ya?

unfaithful

2006-07-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

Did a lil quiz on "why are you still single?"
The reason for me, still being single was "you're single because you're afraid to get hurt."
Erm..a whole lots of bullshit?
Hurt means pain. Pain? I like!
Conclusion to all that? I'm just plain sick =)

Today. Utterly boring.
Tomorrow. Just another day.
Yesterday. Could've been better.
Now. A bit of today, tomorrow and yesterday.
So which now now are we talking about?

Had always wanted to be a chef all my life. Okay, not entirely. Just earlier on while watching some cooking show. All the yummylicious dishes the chef cooked up simply got me drooling. Dieting has somehow affected my mental ability to think. Foolishly thought i could whipped out something yummy as well. Ended up creating a hell lot of mess, on top of that i poison myself with my very own cooking. Had the urge to puke, guess i was just too full. Went into a slumber after all that. It's those time when you're just too full and it hurts to even move an inch.

Hallucinate about tons of stuffs. The good, the bad and the not so good and bad. I realised that i'm a flirt. I want to get married, eventually. I know life is one hell of a big mess. So what's good and what's not? You go figure.
Dieting is seriously, serious! haa

Curious about the entry title?
Well, fall prey to my honey-fied words. Be taken in by the appearance and all shall be revealed in due time.
Gotta stop here. My facial mask has dried up~ Time to get it removed.
Imma girly playboy! so they say~

imma girly

2006-07-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

Grumpy 'O' me.
Have not had a good night of sleep in days.
My bedtime has been messed up. 6 hours of sleep is pathetic!
I feel so zombie. Life is like a daily routine of waking up, head for school and head back home. Anything outside the routine is like blank, just emptiness. At times like this, i can't help feeling i've aged. Back then, i was still mocking at my female colleauges for sleeping half their day away yet still feeling grumpy. Now it's my turn to have a taste of it.

Entertainment industry, so not into it no more.
No longer sense the need to entertain, anyone. Simply too tired to do so, the fatigue has piled up to an unimaginable height.
Lost my cool today, almost pick a fight in school. How stupid can i still get? A fight in school is totally ridiculous, further more at this age! I'm so itching for a good wallop if mom ever finds out. Kickboxing would soon be history too. I so hate to kill what i can't kill. One day when it all snaps, pray hard that you aren't anywhere near to find out.

Time to diet down to 64kg. Which means, losing 5kg from the current state i'm in. Did i mention it has to be done in a month time or less? haa. Competition in August, how thrilling!

Tons of photo to upload but laziness is so hard to beat. I'm a girly playboy, so they say. How true is it anyway? I can't figure that out myself. Anyway, get this straight, i'm everything you thinks i'm not. Envy me, worship me and i couldn't care less. I've changed, seriously! Take me on and say your prayers.

Oh geez! Pimple outbreak, again -_-''
Luck seems to have run out.
Time for healthy diet and loads of facial and mask.
Imma girly after all.
Who would love me more than myself?
One thing for sure, it ain't gonna be her.

Off to catch some Z's.
I'm losing it in all sort of possible ways.
I can do nuts about it.
Time waits for no one and so do i. I'll be everywhere but near you when it all comes out. "Where'd you go" by Fort Minor runs through my mind as i want to end this entry off.

Can someone spell crazy? Well, i can :) It goes like this.. A-N-D.
Beg to differ? I guess not.

ended before you even knew it

2006-07-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

In love, heart broken ~~soon~~ as of now.

you said a hell load of stuffs, but it all goes down to one thing, it's over. Ironic it might sound, how could anything end before it even begun? Well, it just did.

Past two days were great. you got me thinking in ways which i never would imagine me doing it. you're definitely different from the ~~rest~~ or any i've encountered.

I'm just so Fucked! I can't figure out why, who, what and even how it went wrong? Emotions are mountaining. i knew things would end up this way, i definite did.

pretty eyes you've got, same goes for the smile and every lil things that came along with you. i know i'm starting to like you. i've got no guts to say it. you put a stop to all that before it amounted to anything. Wise choice you've made.

i've dreamt of relationships that would only appear on TV. Never would i expect us to end up like one of it. Being a big fan of such TV serials, i've long memorize/understand how the show would proceed and end. The same goes for us, for life itself is a show except it doesn't have playback or watsoever shits that would have made life easier.

Happy. Are you happy?
Did i misinterpret anything?
Fuck it!
Head to bed and nothing happened. Obviously, nothing really happened!

With each attempts i make. Further away i get from any of you. Closer each time in realising life ain't no fairytale.

communication breakdown

2006-07-11T22:25:00.002+08:00

It's that time again.

Once again, i'm lost.

Where'd you go?

okay, **** it! What in the world are you even talking about?

Darn confuse! Why are you speaking in codes?

Despite being fellow humans, i'm utterly clueless on what you are trying to express.

How about sticking to your ~~normal~~ usual self? Don't speak in the manner that i do. i'm a wannabe, and wannabe practices hard.

Why do i always land myself in such shit ass situations? Dear lord! please remove the flirtyness in me.

[messed up mind]

Feeling pretty lucky. Envious?
It's been girls girls and more girls.
Seems like the luck accumulated throughout all this while is starting to work its magic.
Girls come and go. i'll live with that.
Playing hard to get is so way outdated. Girls, do try harder.
What used to work ain't gonna work twice. If it was even effective, you probably wouldn't need a second go at it.
I so need a break from all this. Too worn out to entertain any more ~~Bimbo~~.

Oh great! i'm sick once more. Curse you Mervin! You virus spreader.
Sick and friendless.
Could things get any worst?
Try taking me down, i'll be back, eventually.

nice to meet you, i'll beat you.

2006-07-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

Feeling rather cranky. You would be too when deprive of your sleep. Arr! Let me sleep!

School was great. Went late for class, bullied the weak and made an absolute fool of myself. School would be totally meaningless without any of those.

Hardly had a wink of sleep. Tried catching up with it whenever i could. I need some shut eyes but not just anywhere. Picky ain't i? haa.

Genius am I, wouldnt you say? Think it is easy? Try it out =)

Yes, i am awake now. Back to feeling cranky.

Look what i've got! A lil birdy!

Mom said i could keep it. I know i wanted it but i've got no idea how to deal with it. It's slimy and squishy..lol. How i wished Mom would start saying "NO!" to me. Time for her to take me in hand. Chances of it happening are close to zero. With the war raging at home, friend or foe lies with her decision. It's a complicating issue, pardon me for not being able to make it clear. War was never an easy business.

Brain juice running low. So much i want to express but can't. Anyway, i've got my pay~ A miserable sum of $100. How am i suppose to do anything with it? Ask a girl out on a date and *poof* i'm broke once more. Time to slap myself hard and knock some sense into me. There's no girl for me to even ask out for a date! I guess it's back to shopping~

courage i've got none.

2006-07-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

i so wanna blog about how sentimental a guy i really am. Sadly, it won't be on this post. If i ever blog about it, i would definitely attract the wrong crowd of attentions and most of all, you all are gonna end up sobbing over it or thinking "how could there be such a sentimental guy/fool exist in such a treacherous world these day." I know what a great guy i really am, lots of you want me for watever reasons you might have but i ain't interested. This is so not the time. Simply lack the self confident. It'll be back soon, i hope. Actual fear i'm having would be the comments that's left behind on the tagboard. Some folks are just gonna give me a good scolding. Iris and Cheryl would surely be among them..lol.

Okay, so i had a trip to the Water Plant. Pretty dull i would say. Anyway, i'm so in love with Melody. Unless you've been there, you probably won't know what i'm saying. If you're a Kid Central fan since young, heard of the show "The Big Q?" It's a darn obvious clue to figuring out who's Melody =)

Err..Oopsie~
Closer look at the boobs, anyone? lol.

Call me sick. i don't care! It's been nearly a year and.. you get the point.

I so believe i've talent in photography. If not, at least in the entertaining industries. The whole group was bursting out in laughter when they saw me taking pics. Comedian won't you say?

This girl look pretty good. Are they the same girl or different. I can't tell. I've got my eyes on the boobs i guess..lol. If you have no idea what i'm talking please view Pic 1!

That's all for the trip. You've never been to the Power Plant if you've never taken pics with them. What about the bottles of water you received? Oh hack with that, i'm right and you're wrong and that's that.

Sound kinda like a tyrant don't i. Look who's having a mood swing too~ haha.

Checklist

2006-07-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

Not much has happen lately at home. That would happen to be a good thing for no news is good news. We are still trying to piece back the family together. So far so good but still, i'm keeping my fingers crossed. Situation could turn ugly in an instant, as simple as a wrong choice of word could cause it all. It's goodbye to peace and quiet and say hello to a broken family. You could say the atmosphere is quite tense, suffocated alive is no joke and it happens.

Enough of all that. Since there's some peace, i thought i should start thinking about myself. Worried too much for the family and i ended up neglecting myself. Self sacrifice is the greatest thing on earth, won't you agree? Guess i've secure a place up in heaven =) haa.

It came to me, how could i make it up to myself? After much deep thoughts. It occurs to me that the most rewarding thing for me would be ~~something~~ someone that could benefit me both mentally and physically. It has definitely got to be a girlfriend.

This entry somehow turned out to be a "girlfriend seeking" post. I swear it wasn't suppose to turn out like this but read on anyway =)

Checklist to getting a girlfriend
OR
What a girlfriend should be equipped with.
Are written below..

Got to be a girl.
Long hair would be nice. Short hair ain't that bad too.
Pretty would be great. Adorable is nice. Averagy is still..average.
Tall is cool. Short isn't really my kinda girl.
Great character. Preferably one with special ability, say..complete trust in me? lol.

My list is pretty much done. Think you're up to it? Tag me =)

My folks think i'm turning gay. So i've been deeply hurt by a B**** but that doesn't mean i've lost faith in girls. Shame on you Mom and Dad! You belittle your son..haa. Okay, so i like wearing girly kinda clothing but it's trendy and i bought it from an all guys clothing shop. I think i see their point now. It's the shop isn't it?

Before i end it off and hop onto bed. i would like to say i love you all lots. Thanks for making me think twice or thrice before getting into a relationship. Marriage is definitely a scary thing. Things just start to turn dull after sometime and divorce comes next.

Blabbering too much am i? haa. It's off to bed for me, got to wake up early for the trip to the Water Plant. Wait for me bottles of recycled water a.k.a new water, drink you all up~

what the..

2006-06-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

Dump all the mirrors! No, dump anything i can see my reflection in!

They are back, dreadful minions of puberty. Puberty ain't all that bad. Some hits you without you realizing only till you find parts of you being, big. Mainly it's the invasion of the deadly minions i can do without.

Probably gonna consult my all-so-friendly-yet-overcharging doctor to see what he can do to hold them back or even better, eliminate them once and for all!

No war can be fought without fundings, time to seek financial help from dearest mom =)
There goes another sum of money which went into the funding of "POOF" also known as "Protect our own face." The money simply goes "poof!" too.

So wanna just stay at home all day long. Don't wanna meet nobody when i'm in such a state. I'm desperate, will do anything to look good. Infant's blood anyone?Starting to sound insane, somebody help me!

[Prayers to God or whatever thingy that will relieve me from the torment by minions of puberty]

Dearest God or whatever thingy,

I know i've not been exactly good. Blame it on the minions, they made me do all those stuffs. World peace seems impossible but how about just peace? Did i lose you in my words? Put it simply, all i'm asking for is stop the invasion of the minions and heal the casualties/damages done.
Thanks a ka-zillion for granting my tinsy lil wish. If not.. you jolly well know what's coming for you. Prayers of another sort will soon be rattling through your ears.

Prayers from victim of puberty with EXTREMELY bad attitude.

你好不诚实,欺骗了你我的感情

2006-06-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

Dope!

Yes, that's pretty much all i've got to say.

no stamina results in death

2006-06-25T20:42:00.000+08:00

i've got no stamina!
kinda got my ass owned too.
things turned out rather well despite all that. No serious injuries. All thanks to my trusty gears! Love you lots groin guard and mouth guard. *kissy kissy*

So the whole "selection" thingy might have been a scheme to lure us into the club for i was told to head down for training. If you guys had seen me in action, i bet you would say i sucked at it. We took videos too, lets hope things don't turn out that bad. *prays*

Time to panick. How on earth am i suppose to earn some extra cash when it totally clash with the training? Not forgetting coping with school work too. Well, school work can wait but what about girls? Arr! Anyway things will turn out the way it should, eventually :)

Time to head off to bed. Darn beat from all the "fun" experienced today. Make a couple of friends, or at least i guess we are friends..lol.

A zombie me you all shall see tomorrow~

51. A bit more over you.

2006-06-24T21:37:00.000+08:00

50 blog entries.*clap clap*
When this is publish, it will be 51. *even more claps*

Training was called off. Stupidly, i wasn't informed. Pretty much gotten use to all this sudden changes in stuffs. So with all the spare time on my hand, what better things to do than to shop.
*Note to all: i'm not piss off or venting my frustration by shopping.*
I'm afraid to say, i've attained enlightenment and nothing could really get me now. *evil laugh*

Went over to Marina Square to shop for my gears, a groin guard and a mouth guard. Bumped into an old classmate who was out shopping with her boyfriend. Chit chat a bit and we went seperate ways after that. Couldn't recall her name, so had to cut the conversation short to avoid bringing embarrasment to myself. I've always boast about my memory..well..you get it ;)

My new Tee~

X-rayted.

Went for a movie with Yixin yesterday. He got his pay and i was glad to help him come up with ideas on spending it. Getting him to purchase anything was easy, just lead him into a shop and get a salesgirl to handle him. He've got no immunity against girls and will turn soft at the sight of them. That's when he is most vulenerable, it's anybody's chance to drain him dry of his money..haa.
After the movie we kinda got stalked by 2 girls. Were they aftering my Tee? No idea what sinister scheme they came up with but we managed to shake them off. They were giggling all the way behind us, totally weird huh? I bet they must be aftering my jeans..haa.

Okay..i'm getting sleepy *yawns*
All the typing and the staring at the screen is finally starting to tire me out. "Old" is the word that comes to my mind. "Death" comes after it and i wish it's upon her. So much for "enlightenment" haa.

2006-06-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

Selection for Kickboxing or something is on Sunday!

Totally not prepared for it at all. So gonna get my ass kick. *Ouch!*

Before anyone starts blaming me. All i would like to say is, i got the news only today. Yes! 22/06/06 today!

My mind is in a whirl. I bet i might just start blabbering nonsenses any minute now.

Behold! My kiddy size boxer along with the all-so-long hand wrap.

Amazing isn't it? That i could actually find my stuffs at such a short time. Well, what do you expect? It has been beside my bed all the while. Could somebody say seriousness?

Bet none of you folks ever thought i was serious about anything. I don't blame you folks at all, seriously i don't. Even if i did, you wouldn't know too..lol. You all merely fell prey to the appearance. Put it simply, i'm everything you thinks i'm not.

Anyhow the story goes like this..
Pick up this sport when i was feeling emotionally unstable. Soon it became something i relied on. Such a sport is addictive, you get high on it. The pain, the blood and the sweat causes it all. Oh, not forgetting that dearest mum objected to me joining in. The worried face and all the nagging just makes everything so worthwhile. Plain sick ain't i? That's what happens when you get traumatized by a relationship that meant so..something.

[look into a messed up mind]
*P.S slight re-arrangement of sentences are needed to make sense out of all the senselessness.

I love the life i lead, so get out of mine and get your own.
Why the sudden stop in everything? Are you there?
Been nice knowing you.
So similar we are but we just aren't meant to belong.
I tried, you gave up.
Care for a game of play hard to get?
Who ever out hardens the other, wins.
You win, you lose me. I win, i lose you. Isn't it fun?
[end]

when i blog, don't expect much sensible things to be written. I just blog what's on my mind. Now you know how i'm thinking don't you?

Signing off,
guy-with-girls-trouble.

2006-06-21T13:54:00.000+08:00

Guess who's back?
It's Mr Nerdy!
*Applause*

Fucking look like a girl, no more.

So it's true. There's a girl for every nerd.

I'm back to blog. As always, i blog either when i'm darn bored or feeling real troubled. For now, it's both.

I'm gonna go about how the holiday is killing me. Peeps who don't wanna find out how can just skip the next few lines. Holiday is drawing to an end soon and i've not done any of the projects given. Oh well.. there's always a couple of hours i can spare to finish it all, i guess =)

A few things that's making me rather not myself.

Girls. Complicating species they are.
Me. What am i?
Cheryl! Where's my tagboard?
Joanna! Hurry back and help me out with my projects.
Dearest Mum, where's my allowance?
Bunny rabbit seems annoyed with me.
Someone headed out with two girls without inviting me along. 1 guy to 2 girls? Totally unacceptable.
Skipped training. Am i gonna get my ass kick?
Why am i spending my time blogging?
There's a lot more stuffs i can't recall. This is troubling for someone with good memory.

Conclusion to all that?

Nothing.

Or perhaps a lil something. Wedding is good even though you ain't the one getting married.

Starting is easy. Continuing is hard when you've no idea what you are up against.

2006-05-25T18:59:00.000+08:00

Despite all the harsh punishments given when rules are violated.
School's pretty fun. Seriously, it is.
At times i wonder, where on Earth did the educations we received went to?
Oh well, it probably went somewhere, eventually.

Just look at how long it has been around.

25 sweet long years. Now, it's nothing more than a tanning spot.

Thumbs up to the 4 legged crawler.

- Her -
i chose to drift apart.
i can't keep up no more.
her beauty, it's breath taking.
goodbye, she's long taken.
it's goodbye untill the day singlehood returns to you, my forbidden love.

2006-05-21T13:05:00.000+08:00

Blue for a moment.
Nothing lasts, even color fades.
It all goes down to one thing.
Were you happy when it lasted?

Spray on hair color.
Gone are the outrageous colors after a wash.
Not a trace to be found.
If only..
memories were as easy as that.

2006-05-14T17:24:00.000+08:00

Mother's day.
Not everyone can celebrate that.
I know i can't for Father's day awaits me.
Certain criterias have to be met to be allowed entry into the Motherhood.
For a start, your pregnancy test kit has to be "POSITIVE."
No, you are not allowed entry despite placing two "NEGATIVE" result test kit in the form of a " + " sign.
Secondly, your tummy ballons over the next few months and showed no sign of deflating.
Tricky part to this is that you might actually be suffering from really bad indigestion.
To ensure your health is not at risk. You went and consult a doctor. Only to hear from the doctor "Congrats! you are P--R-E-G-N-A-N-T!"
Yes, there's no doubt about it.
You are now a member of the Motherhood.
The Motherhood embrace you with open arms.
Who ever said being a mother was easy? It's all down to hard and vigorous work.
So here it is dearest moms all over the globe, a day of recognition for all the efforts gone into bearing a child.
We give you Mother's day. You all deserve it =)

used

2006-05-13T14:11:00.000+08:00

No tagboard for tagging. *sigh*
This blog is gonna cease to exist pretty soon.
Never deal with what you've no experience in, it might just prove fatal.

Err..
the sickening feeling of being used is back. Happen every time when i am with them. Are my senses trying to tell me something?
They never fail to manipulate me whenever there's a chance. Such chances are gonna run out soon, very soon.
Repay kindness with cruelty. It's time i put what i've learnt to work.

Vesak day is over.
No need to act goody goody no more. Sure is tiring keeping it up for the entire day.
I need money. Not hard on cash really. Earning a tinsy bit more never hurts or does it?
Physically and mentally strained. Looking at the bright side, i might say i am training my mind and body while getting paid at the same time. Way cool huh? lol.

True man need no love, merely money.
Girls are tempting but without lust, what are they?
We speak an international language, money.

Remember the times when we were young? When girls stick to their own kind and boys stick to theirs. If only our immunity never depleted, we would still be at harmony with one another. Infiltrated by lust/love we lost our mind. Penetrated each other borders, some bled while others groaned. Was it a struggle to satisfy their ego or mere pleasure of dominating others? The war rages on nevertheless. Casualties are bound to be found. Some head back into battlefield after recovery, thirsty for a taste of bringing others down. While others never recovers and memories enough to kill are etched onto their minds, tormenting them for eternity. Someone will bring them relief, lending them a hand when they needed it most. A friend they thought but life ain't no fairytale..
*Poof* there goes another..victim of a senseless war.

Signing off,
And the one with a failed immune system.

New skill acquired.

2006-05-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

Notice the new blog skin?
I changed it all by myself *clap clap*
Darn! i am good with computer aren't i? haa.

Been 2 weeks since a brand new school term has started. Many would have thought previous debts would have clearly been written off by now. But, no~ some stuffs are clearly etched to the mind. Nowhere to hide, no leniency shown. The torture continues..

Truth is, i've no idea what kind of debt i got myself into. Definitely not with money. Love perhaps?

Time to embark on a journey with love. Pathetic thing is i can't. Harldy have enough time for myself, much more spend it with others. Previous failed relationship has taken its toll on me, down with girly phobia.
Symtoms are..

lack of trust in opposite sex, all opposite sex are downright vicious creatures that rips you into bite size pieces.
suffering from mild or severe hallucination, replicas of Cindy have invaded us! We are doom!
no sense of security even with himself

Shows interest in impersonating things of watsoever.

That's all for today folks!

Tune in to "Mentally ill youth" same time same blog.

Stand up. Speak up. Now, pay up.

2006-05-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

Neglected.

At times i wonder, where exactly am i leading my life to?

All the painstaking efforts made might end me up with a whole lot of nothing.

No appreciation shown. No nothing. Just a whole lot of crap.

I've grown tired of being nice. It's time to say goodbye.

Forget you? Never, but soon.

~End~

2006-04-28T21:29:00.000+08:00

Image.

Lots of weird shyt have happened.

My mind is blank. Somehow something managed to drain me dried of my brain juice. Tons of things went through my mind earlier on *poof* now it's gone. Shall we call this "weird?"

My world have been revolving around "image" every since school term started. Yes, no longer a freshie =) i ought to learn how to carry myself these days or else risk losing the company around me. To think they call themselves "friends." What a laugh..haa.

Sacrifice fun for the sake of image. I simply can't bring myself to do it. Fun is the very image of me. No fun, no image and needless to say, no me.

School ain't that great anymore. Everybody is too concern about image to even have fun. Going to school has become quite a dread. Long hours yet all so short breaks inbetween. Dozing off seems so common since there aren't much to chat about. Keeping silence is a kind of "image" too.

Girls what are they?
Boys goes nuts about them.
Treat them nice, they think you are flirting.
Be cool around them, what an act you are.
I'll say girls are heartbreaker wrapped in nice wrappers to lure naive kiddies attracted to their all-so-nice outer cover of them.
Pretty girls are heartbreaker. So are the ugly ones.
Since you are gonna end up being heartbroken.
Get the pretty ones to do it then.

So out of love.
Out of image.
Out of everything.

Signing out as well.
*gone*

2006-04-25T13:45:00.000+08:00

French: Translation:
BONJOUR! Good day!

Je M'Appelle And My name is And
Je Suis ne' Singapour I am from Singapore
Je Suis Singapourien I am Singaporean
Je Suis De e'Tudiant I am a Student
Je Suis Ce'Li Bataire! I am Single!

Haa..so French class was fun afterall :)
I've got the talent and a whole lot of enthusiams. *self claimed*
All i lack of are the French Initial 1 books!
Peiyan have you still got your books?

This was what i wore to class. Love this tee!

Topless babe!

You can never get enough of topless babe! haa

Fooled around with the effects on my camera phone..

First day of school. Sure am restless!

...Blank

Solarise me.

4 hours more till it's time for CCA.
Can't sleep with my contact lens on. Darn!
Lets hope that the resizing work out fine or there won't be any pictures from now on..haa.
I am so loving school. Especially the girls *winks*

2006-04-22T22:11:00.000+08:00

Shyt!

Blogging sucks when your entry doesn't get through. Or perhaps i didn't even blog in the first place. It's either i am ageing rapidly or something out of the ordinary is happening.

Weird shyt have been going on lately. Weirdness i can handle but not the creepiness that came along with it.

All encounters happened at home. Just when you thought there's no place better than home. Think again.

Weird/creepy case senario number 1..
Lets just say i saw an exact replica of my sis. "She" went to the kitchen and that's it. Moments later, dearest mom informed me to lower my volume for my sis was in her room all the while in deep slumber. Try figuring out what i am trying to say here. My mind is all fuzzy right now.

Weird/creepy case senario number 2..
i was going to watch some indecent vcd but the darn player wouldn't work. Next thing i know, my laptop is up and running on its very own! Could someone fill me in on what is wrong with the electrical appliances over at my place?

My whole body is aching. My mind is tired. I simply lack the determination to train for kickboxing.
The freshie are all so tough looking.
The girls are HOT!

Stay tune to find out if i will beat the crap out of the freshie or will i get my ass kick by them. Lastly, will i win the hearts of the girls or end up having mine shattered.
Great plot and great actor (me!) needs a great big bunch of fabulous audience *winks*

2006-04-20T10:08:00.000+08:00

Chocolates. Either you love it or hate it. Honestly, who in their right mind would hate chocolate?
All-so-yummy chocolates. One bite of it *poof* sends you craving for more.
Totally addictive they are, just like love.
You can never get too much love. There's simply not enough to go around. That ought to explain the homeless and starved folks living on the streets.

I love dark chocolates.
Simply drawn to its bitterness and strong taste. Heard it toughen one up too.
Some claims dark chocolates are meant for guys. The bitter taste that lingers in the taste buds suit guys perfectly.
Ever heard of the saying "chocolates taste like first love?"
If it's true. Mine tasted exactly like dark chocolate. The bitter aftertaste was far worst than the average chocolates though. The bitterness lingers forever and it was simple too much for me to bear. I begged and cried. Wishing for the sweetness to last and the bitterness never to arrive.
Wishes never come true, don't they.

Chocolate kills. Instantly or maybe in the long run.
Consumption of too much chocolates might result in adrenaline rush and *ka boom!* there goes your lil heart. You could simply have gourge or choke yourself to death too.
So you decide to play it safe. A chocolate bar a day then. A year later, you discovered you are down with diabetes. Losing a kidney or two saved your life but the torture continues.
Anyway, my point would be i got killed twice. Lucky me =)

What can't kill you makes you stronger.
Off to purchase more chocolates~
Wait up for me Candy Empire girlies..
lalala~

Testing.. 1.. 2..

2006-04-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

So it seems i got a new blog skin, courtesy of the all-so-great-at-delaying Cheryl who got it done for me. Despite DELAYING it for a DAY..
i am still gonna show some manners and thanks her for it..
Thank you *toot* Cheryl *toot* =)
Great help sure is hard to come by these days.
*shake head*
Oh well, just got to settle for cheap labourer till i can afford better ones..lol.

Hmm..thought i ought to put on a few pounds after having cheap labourers to do my dirty job, however, it seems my weight dropped from 68kg to 66kg. What is wrong with me? I could lose weight even by being a couch potato? Yes, we burn off fats even by not doing anything, but this is ridicules.
Could i've been down with terminal illness that i didn't even realize of having?
Could it be that mom isn't feeding me enough? I am sucha poor kid, neglected by the world. *boohoo*
Come on people, shower me with LOVE and lots of yummy GOODIES~

Ageing population is hindering the economic's growth.
I happen to be contributing to the hindrance too.
Why do i say that even though i am only 18? Yes, sweet 18. So much youth that one can flirt away with at that age. *day dreaming*
Oopsie~
I am ageing because my whole body is aching and sore from yesterday basketball game. That had never happen before. Mere 3 hours of fun and i can't even take it no more? What else could i say besides that i am ageing.
Where's the immortality pills and everlasting youth potions when you need one?
Does one really have to sell the soul to the devil to achieve great things only after losing something even of greater value?

Tired of trying to be a perfectionist. It really is tiring business. I simply lack what it takes. Things just go the wrong way the harder you try to make it works. One thing i have ample of is getting myself into trouble, women trouble. So loving it!

Signing off,
Pefectionist-wannabe-but-ain't-got-what-it-takes-gigolo-in-training.

2006-04-15T00:23:00.000+08:00

T-I-R-E-D !!
S-O-U-R-I-S-H!!
These words best describe the current state i am in.
Good Friday had been rather good =)

Started the day off by stuffing myself silly with tonnes of tuna toast (Lex told me it would make me grow, it had better! if not.. *Evil Grin*)
Caught up with some chit chat with peoples who normally wouldn't give a damn about me. (Good friday goodness has rubbed off on me..oh yea, no longer a pathetic fool!)
Talked my mom into getting a larger bed for me. Wanted it in King size but mom would only give in to a Queen. Oh well, anything larger than a Single is good enough..haa. (i need more space for more "actions")
Finally, headed out for basketball. We won each and every match that came our way! Played non-stop for 3 freaking hours! We ended up with a tired body and "sourish" arms and legs.

Today had been fun fun fun and more fun!

Could have been better if only Cheryl kept to her words and got me a new blog skin. *tsk tsk* girls these days have no sense of.. responsiblity? lol.

How come everything seems to be spinning!
It's getting really dark in here too!

... *gone off to dreamland*

SNORES~

2006-04-14T11:20:00.000+08:00

I have got no time to blog!
Okay, not really that busy.
Just kinda lazy =)
The holiday is doing nothing but harm to me.
Can hardly wait till school term starts, 1 more week to go!
Went on a shopping spree just to prepare for school.
*tsk tsk*
Guys these days sure are vain..lol.
Oops~ i almost forgot, i am a guy too.
Work work work..
That's pretty much what my life been up to.
Somehow i got the feeling the peeps doesn't want me to work. Been getting lesser shift.
They even hid the fact that there's a new FEMALE staff. Are they trying to protect her away from me? Kinda not working though, met her last night. As usual i was up to my usual tricks *grin grin* Who could resist me?
And now..
She's my..
travel buddy!
Finally, someone to accompany me on the ride back home.
That's what i thought, but she took a cab while i took a bus.
Geez..she claims i am rich, who's the rich one now?haa.

*yawn*
getting all so sleepy, shall head off to bed.
tata~ till next time.

2006-04-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

Have you milk today?
Milk is a form of expression describing the jolly feeling felt when someone ( mainly busty people) flirts with you.
Well, i sure got milked earlier on.
Felt rather ashamed of myself, truthfully!
Just when i thought i could resist the tempation of a good milking, i failed horribly. *shake head*
You know how the farm works? Several cows are milk at the same time to save cost and boost efficency. It's pretty much what i am doing too, only on girls that's all.
Before you peeps go around bad mouthing me. I am doing it for the sake of my poorly paid job, as a waiter.
Please spare me!

*Change of topic*
Yes. I love milk.
Whether it's fresh from the cows or someone else’s.
Packed in milk cartons or all bottled up.
Chocolate, strawberry or watsoever flavours it might comes in.
I am loving it =)
At times i wonder. What if girls were like milk?
*In deep thoughts*
I still will love it all, i guess.
Main differences?

I am drawn to mature girls instead. So it ain't that "fresh" no more..haa.
Milk comes in value pack known as "twin pack." You don't get such good deals in the real market.
You get to choose what kinda milk you want. Even go through thoroughly with the checking of the packing. Let's see you try that now, wise guy.

Girls and expires date have a lot in common, both goes bad after a period of time.

Milk ain't all that good. That are people who are lactose intolerant. That's why we have got gay.

What's left when you are done with the packet of milk? Disposing of it can be a hassle. Recycle, reduce or reuse? Who knows, you might just end up purchasing a packet of milk made out of recycled materials.

HAVE YOU MILK YET?

2006-04-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

Fresh~ ness~
Oh yea~
I got paid!
Pardon me for going all so crazy over a small sum of money written on a cheque.
It's my cheque, my money i earned through dispicable means ;)
The privilege of dumping the cheque into the cheque collection bin went to non-other but, me =)
Simply love doing it. I bet i could do it all day long provided i even had any to begin with..haa.
The thrill of checking out the account balance once every few hours at the ATM machine is a killer.
You never know when the transaction will get through or perhaps it might never will?
Best part of everything? It's the moment when my account balance increased. Frustration and stress that came along with the wait, all perish along with it.
Money sure can work wonders!
Things i will be doing upon receiving that sum of money..

Spend it all up
Regret not saving up for a rainy day
Back slogging my butt off to work
Repeat the same procedures on the very next pay day

Did i mention i..

bought myself a pair of Levi's shoe?

brought my family out for a meal?

went on a shopping spree?

Haa.. seems like i just did *Dope!*

I am done with the "Spend it all up" task even before i got my pay. Amazing isn't it?

Put your brain to work and you shall figure it out, eventually.

Off to carry out the second task on the list..

tata~

2006-04-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

I am turning into a lazy ass. Not to mention an ugly one at it too. Seriously, this holiday is ruining my life. First it was the pimple outbreak which is still occuring as we speak. Come to think of it, that's the only thing that made my life miserable. Darn you pimply watsoever thingy!
Enough whining, back to the not so bad events that happened.
Took lil Andy to the hair salon. Obviously to get a haircut, however, did thought of having his hair coloured but another time perhaps =)

He got his very own lil tail~

Him checking out his new hair style..

Me persuading him that it looks good on him.

A satisfied look on his angelic face..angelic? As if!
Babysitting was never easy even when they aren't toddler no more.
Taking care of Andy makes me wanna have my very own kids as well.
The joy of parenthood? Hell no! It's the joy of owning a living toy..haa.
Andy is a toy. Cindy was a toy. Still, there's plenty of toys out there for me to toy about.
Don't get me wrong. I love my toys. i seriously do with all my heart.
If you aren't a toy, simply you aren't worth my time handling with.
Still think you can make it to my toys collection? Try me then..

After a day of playing. Walking about aimlessly on the streets. Stuffing myself with Macdonald's junkies.

*Note the amount of hot fudge the girl gave me ;)
With all that, you get the all so restless me that you guys saw earlier on.
Age shows no mercy for i am a victim myself..
RUN! or FLIRT YOUR YOUTH AWAY WHILE YOU STILL HAVE IT!!

2006-04-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

Yixin is a *insert various vulgarities here*!!
Thanks for telling me you can't make it to town when i am already on my way there.
You are such a *insert vularities here* buddy!
Don't even check out my blog at all *tsk tsk*
Anyway, thanks for giving me a chance to curse and swear at you without feeling guilty =)
What you don't know can't hurt right? lol

An awfully rewarding trip to town =)
Shopping without having to pay a cent. Well..not at this moment of time that is, for mom had yet to bug me for payment. Bought gay-like kinda clothings..lol. Gay is the latest trend ;p
The girls were great too! Mostly grade A beauties.
Yixin would be drooling all over if he happened to be there. Tough luck my man~ You just aren't fated.
Life is unfair!
Mervin is going to japan AGAIN!
Worst of all, he ain't gonna get me anything despite having me to choose his IS module thingy while he is away having fun.
Hmm..time for a lil sabotaging? lol
I am a meanie~

2006-03-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog about.
Blogging isn't what it used to be lately.
Merely blogging for the sake of blogging? *pretty lost in these words myself..haa*
A couple of things kept on running through my head. It's downright annoying when your thoughts just wander about on its own.
My mind is telling me that everything we do has a cause. What's the objective? What am i trying to achieve?
Are those the hard facts of what life is all about?
Life sure is boring if it went by the rules. One thing for sure, life would be better for me if all those miserable pimples just went off =)
Let's all pray hard for me that i no longer have to suffer from pimple outbreak, won't you all do just that?
Great beings out there~
If you have any, and i really mean ANY ideas on ridding those evil pesky whatsoever thingy that's out to ruin my life..
CALL ME, PAGE ME, or anything that will catch my attention and i swear i will get back to you before you even know it.
save me..

2006-03-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

Honey! i am home~
Yes, finally back to blogging.
Rather moodless recently due to yet another pimple outbreak! Curses! Why can't they just go pop up on someone elses face instead?
As the condition worsen with each outbreak, both physically and mentally drained i get. Life sure is one tiring game. When will it ever stops?
Can hardly bring myself to continue blogging, too much negative charges in the atmosphere.
Off to bed~
Oh.. i have gotten myself a job *clap clap* haa

2006-03-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

*Ah-chew!*
Sneezing my nose off back at the chalet.
You folks must have missed me so much that it eventually touched the God. Constant sneezing must have been God's sign to remind me that i am being missed by all =)
Okay..just might have been my wishful thinking from the start..haa.
The air conditioning along with the turbo fan created a near sub-zero climate. Could have sworn that my nucleus turned into icicle and the vapours in the air turned into snowflakes..haa. Time must have froze as well or at least i wished it had.
The chalet lasted for 3 days 2 nights. In short, it was fun. The full story would end up in say.. 5 pieces of paper? Oh..double sided as well with very small fonts ;)
This entry should have been publish much more earlier. Symptoms of ageing caught up with me and i went into a very deep slumber. Last thing i could remember was everything went pitch black before i could click on "Publish Post."
Sorry to keep you guys waiting, but anyway, good things are worth waiting for..haa.

2006-03-24T17:08:00.000+08:00

Off to chalet~
Back in a couple of days.
In the mean time..
keep on missing me =)

2006-03-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

A STORY THAT HAS NO ENDING..

I am now complete.
Last fragment of me has been found.
The crucial piece was "love."
"Love" was said to be buried in the mortal realm.
Overcoming all ordeals that appears would eventually lead me to "love."
"Love" hid itself in the land of dreams knowing none could differentiate dream and reality apart. Many forsaked sleep and embarked on the hunt for "love." Thus, "love" would never be found till one could go into slumber.
I happened to get lucky. The wait for "love" made me tired and the rest that happened was merely a dream. Fell in love with the girl whom i have never met before or would even thought of being with. Being around her, i could never tell dream from reality. Wasn't concern though, merely wanted it to last.

Words alone can never be enough to express the feelings felt through the whole experience.

Dream girl are you out there somewhere in reality?
Will we ever meet up again?
So many unknowns so lil time.
One thing for sure, memories might fade away but the love felt shall remain.
Time like this i wished i was a kid. Abandoning all logical thinking and just dream.

2006-03-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

It's been..
172880 seconds.
2880 minutes.
48 hours.
Since my cellphone last rang or received any messages and it's still counting.
Rather pathetic isn't it?
How did i end up in such a state?
Who will bring an end to all my agony.

My very own RAP =)
At least i think it is..haa.

Feel so lonely..
i ain't got no money..
*poof* there goes my honey..
SO WAKE UP YOU DUMMY!
your world ain't over homie..
step out and grab somebody..
shall we?

2006-03-20T13:23:00.000+08:00

Being an actor is hard work.
Even for someone like me..
ACTING IS TOUGH WORK!

Helped out in a short film. Shooting was suppose to be taken at TAKA but changed to Raffle's place instead. Oh! i happened to be the leading male actor too..lol.
Filming started from 3pm and ended at a miserable 10pm! Worst of all, i am not paid for my service! *tsk tsk* Things i sacrifice for the sake of ART~

It was hell lots of fun! i ain't gonna complain much except they took away the bed scenes! Where's the joy in acting without some ACTIONS? The role i played as is kinda complicating let's just say i have got split personalities =)

This is me getting all so restless on "her" bed. Bed scene? Not when there's only me on it..haa.

Cheryl, female actress. Don't expect much from a budget film...haa. It's good enough they have got me to make it a whole lot more presentable?lol.

Lastly, a lil something to remind me of the pain i had to go through for the sake of ART~

Film making is so fun and tough at the same time. Being an actor is fun, if you like to seek a whole lot of attention that is. Posing in the middle of the public getting stared and finger pointed is so fun! People wondering if you are plain crazy if they had not notice the camera. For those who noticed, they are wondering if i am the next big thing that's about to hit the screen..lol. I wouldn't mind having acting as a career. It satisfies the attention seeking part in me..haa.

Can hardly wait to receive the final copy of the whole film! Till next time then~

2006-03-20T12:59:00.000+08:00

A lil update~
Been pretty busy lately. Attended numerous wedding dinners. They simply refuse to start things off without me..haa.

Fearing it might get too warm with people crowding around me..haa.

Yet again, it's not kinda presentable. I brought my coat along~

How could i possibly miss out on getting lil Andy to do some silly stuffs to entertain me?haa.

Not much pics to upload for the wedding. The dinner dragged too long. Halfway through it, people were dozing off. Yes, including Andy and i =)

I realized kids are so easily brainwashed. Perhaps it could be the person behind the brainwashing is just too good at it?haa.

2006-03-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

Am i full or empty?
When i am filled with emptiness.
You decide.

Can i be tough if i was a sponge?
Yet again, you decide.

What's with all this questions?
I am not too sure about it myself. The very least is that it kills the boredom lingering around..lol.

2006-03-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

Finally~
made countless attempts to post this entry.
Yes, i am very persistent =)

Once again, my life has been wrecked.
Thanks a lot for making my life miserable.
Memories which took months to suppress got rake up in an instant.

We can't even be friends no more. Do me a favour and delete anything that has to do with me. Yes, it has to be done. I can do it, so can you.

Torturous memories etched onto my mind resurface every now and then. Bit by bit i lost trust in ..

Fuck it! My mind is in a whirl. I can't go on much longer.

I so hate you! You are one sick ass!
The great among of hate was harboured from the great amount of love that i once had for you.
It could only prove how dear you once were to me.
Words alone can never be enough to express the hate i have for you.
Lastly, i thank you for dragging me to hell. Ditching me to let me feel how it actually feels to be ditch when you went through it three times previously with some other man. Gaining your happiness on others sorrow. That is pure sick, go consult a psychiatrist rather than scheming some sickening plans and putting it to work on some freshie who has not been in a relationship before. I am merely just another victim aren't i?

2006-03-16T16:48:00.000+08:00

Groin guard is a man's best friend. Seriously!
Gonna get mine soon or i can kiss fatherhood goodbye.

Training was hell!
Got kicked in the GRION!
It's mother F***ing pain!
My mind went blank, collapsed to the ground. Groaning in pain while rolling about on the floor.
That's all i could remember.

Sounds pretty funny. Yes, it would be if only i wasn't on the receiving end! Darn you Eugene! If i can't satisfy any girls, it's all your fault. Girls out there, feel free to seek revenge for me =)

i have no mood to continue blogging till my lil pal regain back its feeling.

Dear lord,
i promise to fertilize others if you give me a chance.
i beg of you to let my pal gain back consciousness.
please don't take away my fatherhood!

From,
gigolo wannabe.

2006-03-15T12:24:00.000+08:00

Where am i heading?
What am i trying to achieve?
With all the time on my hands, it just kinda make me wonder what the future holds for me.
So much uncertainty lies ahead of me. How thrilling!

Time is essential for one's growth.
Gotta agree with that. Feeling myself growing sensible as time past. Am i the only one who feels that way?

Unknowingly, i am moving on to the second year. Graduation isn't that far after all. Time to pursue a promising career.

Air steward seems nice. Fly around the world on a jet plane asking passengers "Coffee, tea or me?" That is the kind of life i wanna lead. Don't forget about the neat uniform they issue out too. Sounds dull after a while but it's not! Simply imagine having the plane get hijack by terrorist then off you go crashing into some building. *KA BOOM!* So much people to embark on a journey with you to hell. Once in a life time experience =)

Modeling is pretty cool too. Having your face or particular part of you body on magazines, posters or even on the all-so-mighty TV. Trying out all kind of season wears. Not as exciting as Air steward i must say.
Shall consider this as a part time job instead..lol.

Can hardly wait to graduate~
Gonna pursue both as a career.
Wish me hell lots of luck!

2006-03-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

dream and reality.
which are we living in?
when all we ever does is sleep our life away.
waking up and going back into a slumber.
it's all part and parcel of everyday life.
so it doesn't matter which side you choose.
for as long as we live to see the next sunrise or sunset.
there's always tomorrow to switch between either one.
isn't it just great being alive?

For the particular who out there..
You said so that you are hideous so stop complaining about not having a companion by your side. It's not your fault being hideous. i sympathize you as well. However, it's your fault for going around frightening others. After all this while, you ought to be immue to rejections that's bound to occur. Move on~

2006-03-13T14:26:00.000+08:00

TAKE BACK THE HOLIDAYS!
IT'S BORING!

It's been countless times that many would have heard about me complaining how boring the holidays are. Yes, i am still at it..haa.
Not gonna stop until my life is being spice up.

Did thought of going into social work just to kill the boredom. Wonder which suit me better. Old folks home or those home for the metally ill? Being doing a whole lot of things that might end me up in Hell. Time to make up for the evil deeds i have done. However, temptations are everywhere! Fear i might end up doing more harm than good..lol.

Firstly, there is the temptation of greed. I might end up robbing the poor and helpless old folks. Heard that majority are rich!

Secondly, temptation of lust. Mentally ills might not have the brains but they might just have the looks. Might end up *censored* them.

After much consideration, i have decided to stay home and rot =) By not doing anything, i am actually doing a whole lot of good deeds. I am just so right ain't i?

Told an awful lots of lies during the holidays too. The holidays are just so bad for the soul. Charmaine got fooled into thinking i went into social work at the age of twelve. How gullible! *oopsie*
Come to think of it. That's the only lie i ever told..haa.

Appearance can be deceiving. Character can be mould.
What should we believe in then?
Believe nothing what the bare eyes shows.
Feel with the heart and all truth shall be revealed.
P.S. This works only for those with a heart. A heart willing to except the real truth.

signing off,
Despo-not And.

2006-03-12T16:55:00.000+08:00

Made a big mistake!
The wedding was yesterday and not today.
Aww..i miss out on a whole lot of fun.
Luckily, i didn't miss out on the food though..haa.

My lil cousin dozing off. The wait for the food was simply too long for him to endure.

Fact is, he was faking it all..haa. I sure have taught him well =)

Trip to the washroom was hell lot of fun~
Lil Andy took the follwing pics..

Insisted on me taking with that sign. I wonder why?

Made another trip to the washroom. Simply had a drink too much. It's still fun fun fun~

He's well trained by me. Totally immue to kissy kissy~

Just look at his smile. Absolutely mesmerizing..haa.

Bleah~

Our third trip to the washroom..haa.
He's simply too tired.

Mirror image..

We are both camera fanatics or did i made him into one?lol.
We had three servings of mango pudding! Boy~ Was he happy.

That's all for this entry..